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2009-09-30T16:16:00.003+08:00

Changed me linkz, laaaa!

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HEY! You there! :>
Now ya know where to go?
Now ya know where to go?
Now ya know where to go?

tore the veil- 2meanings in Clareserene's dictionary:
1) Jesus' finished work at the cross and how we can enter into His presence with faith.
2) When the priest says, kiss the bride. lol. then you take away the veil.
3) Seeing something you were once blind to.

Oright. Said I was on MIA but having a break, for now. Then back again.

2009-09-19T10:34:00.009+08:00

Believing in so much more!

Studied with classmates yesterday after school. Wasn't a waste of time, for once.
Then Alvin left for npcc, Frankie left for his dance, Manning & Qi Yun, who weren't studying followed to canteen for awhile, then did those photos of the school for ipw, then they left too, leaving Brenda and me to study. lol. geog&science.
Prolly MIA-ing until after exams too.
I am trusting God for A1s, there will be no lack in any area and His strength will be made unto me. There's no greater love than His!
D'you know your brain reacts negatively to the words "don't" & "no", but positively to "you can do it"? hurh, wow that's so cool.

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You oughta know, tonight is the night to let it go,
Put on a show, I wanna see how you lose control,
So leave it behind 'cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

So baby don't worry, you are my only,
You won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You'll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down, Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down, Even if the sky is falling down- down, jay sean

2009-09-11T21:31:00.027+08:00

Sugar free.
happy birthday daddy!! :} (10/9)
Starting from weds, went training. Can die like that without water break for so long.
Really believe that 'confidence' is the word.
After so long, I'm trying to get it back again. Hm, feel supernooob(which I am lol). Sorry.
Hid Fang Yi's phone, but she found it anyway. :D Hahaa.
Headed over to 7-11 for a longlong break. Retainers suck.
Met Coach E at stec. Owe it to her for speaking good stuff into life, it's what I really needed to hear. Thanks. (: Jesus is really awesomee.
Yesterday, tutioned for 3hours.
Then went to RTC to celebrate dad's birthday. (:
Sipped abit of parent's drinks. Rum is nice. Beer is nicer.
As for today, woke up early tried finishing off homework and to revise.
Left the house at 11.20, and the rain started to pour down, soaking. ): went back home to change, then left again, was late. Met the dg, divo(inserts all the peepos names), inclusive of
pearlyn,nicolas,yang jun at bk @ raffles.
Walked to the art house with the rest of the level to see the dead sea scrolls, preserved in a cave at israel i think? Learnt lots. If God's promises are so incredibly faithful to that nation, Israel, how much more to us, now that Jesus has died and rose again? :D
Waiting time in the queue was stupid though, watched phua chu kang on yangjun's phone with Bekah(:. Haha, funny sey. Storyline was copied yknows. >:(
At 4+pm, I zhao liao, go meet Savonne &co. @ bugis. Saw Racia! O:
Bought that clothing been dreaming of ok. Hahha, now they have extensions!! Nice colour!
Tomorrow, parent's going overseas gonna stay with cousins. Wish could stay with godsis, but nevermind.
Coach E

get it the way you did..
Quote: "The truth is a very beautiful and terrible thing, the timing it is told must be at a caution,otherwise...."

2009-09-07T11:15:00.004+08:00

Quote: "When the power of love exceeds the love of power, the world will finally know peace.." ♥ understand?:}

Been anticipating whether to blog or not.
Friday was a funny day alright. This terms results could have been better.
mcs made things worse.
On Saturday went for half of the Connect09, for the last praise &worship joined Cara in the front and jumped and danced.
After that, when it was over, felt bit extra so went off.
The rest of what happened, not telling it here. All can say was reached home real late. :D
Managed to wake up, next day. First service with Whitzxzx was gooodd!
Not by any principles of faith, but by just coming, going to Jesus, enters into His presence, it gives the revelation of what to do next, new desires in our hearts producing those breakthroughs. For the transformation comes from the inside-out, not by doing anything, but by being, it comes by the Spirit of the Lord, each time we behold God's glory. Just by coming and drawing near, allowing God to kiss you &never let you go. (:
So after that service, walked around with Whit and sat down taking care of people's belongings for them. Watched G-force with her. 3D one! Hehh, then went for third.
No regrets going for it, as Hillsongs led worship and also 'cos Rachiie came. (:
Could go to the front to jump! Okla, security pushed us back to the aisles. Cara, Rachie &I were at the front. Lol. "take me as you find me, all my fears and failures. saviour he can move the mountains my god is mighty to save. he is mighty to save"
During service, sit for too long already became very restless. Zz,

learnt one thing though, we react when we don't know what the other person will do next.
Today some bad things happened, hope things will turn around, now.

Rachiiiie!!<3

2009-09-03T14:28:00.005+08:00

Tiffany<3 Aishah<3 Kit Wai<3

CLOSE TO YOUR HEART, HELD SAFE IN YOUR HANDS. JESUS.

Hai, yesterday finally went training after abcdefghijklm years!! x) miss them la, big thanks to Shi Hui for her patience with me. THANKYOU! (:
Keep falling down too much nowadays :x Once at bus stop, once at class..~~where next.ok,shutup.~~
This morning fell down and landed on my back, it's acheing like crazzzy :s
Currently listening to counting on God by desperation band, @ somebody's blog.:D

God, without you nothing would hold me together whenever I'm about to fall apart.
You bring people back to your arms, as soon as they try reaching for you, again.

I cast my cares to you, I see all my fears nailed to the cross. Past, wiped out by Your blood.
The past doesn't determine the future, His word does. The first &last word in every situation.
You see past what I am, to who I am. I'm yours forever.
I can't put my trust in anyone but You, right now, only Your grace has delivered me &set me straight. Position? It has never changed in Your eyes.
But soon, shall be conformed into that image. Amen.
All my fears, they fade away, when I see you.

On a brighter note, Monday was cher's day!! SACSS was dismissed 1hour 10minutes earlier than Anderson. Chiong-ed there to meet Tiffany, Aisha, Christianne &Kit Wai.
When reached there was running towards Kit Wai and Tiffany, and they were doing the same too to hug. Lol. Like bit sot. :D
It was gooodd, seeing Mdm A! (: Got two hugs~ yay
Kit Wai, Tiffany(nurhannah and some others) and Aisha went in to her class and made them dance. Heh hehh. Good to know they are taking after the...
6CA(pronounced sexaye<3)tradition!
Talked with cher,us and Christianne. (: Stoned @ dry swimming pool, then bus-ed to t1, then went over to tampines. Spent most time stonning. Pre-planned prankcalls.
Lots of exchange, now can understand better we're not alone. Friends stay friends forever.<3

2009-08-28T23:06:00.012+08:00

MAKE A WISH,

This week- things done. ^^

Tuesday : Followed Amelia & co. to get teacher's day present. Spent long time

walking around for it though.

Wednesday : Cleared bit of dnt, acrylic's cut, filed & polished. It just needs a bit of bending.

Thanks to Frankie helped me cut it damn straight! thanksthanks. headache that day, stayed for geog test.

Thursday : Headache murdered my brain, stayed off, pill made me sleep for 15hours,

Friday : Submitted my photoshop file for CE lesson, I am satisfied. (:

Followed mother for her ministry meeting, stayed @ suntec, starbucks, studying.

Gonna clear homework soon.

This monday, prolly going back to pri school for cher's day. Either meeting Tiff & co. or Christianne? Hahaa.

In moments where you feel sidelined by the world, God's closest to you, and has something better for you. Keep your eyes fixed on Him, exalting all that you behold of Him.
While all these things around you, cause you to humble yourself and see the need for His grace to abound, He will exalt you. For He is a God who honours His words.

His perfect Love has reached you and is waiting for you to see it. "past all my failures, to the point of my need"..

2009-08-19T18:11:00.011+08:00

I FOUND OUT! (:
*stay where you are!
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that a boomer is actually a very large male kangaroo! :D HAHAA! So cute http://education.yahoo.com/reference/dictionary/entry/boomer
Badly wanted to go in yesterday but father lectured until 6.55, so decided to use my 2days of MC, and rest. Hais, still have stuff to hand in that forgot to today. Hmm? :/
Flagraising today was funny!! This person from 1/5 or 1/3 keep jumping up and down to look at the clouds. Lame uh.
For science today, went to physics lab, studying the heart(not matters of the heart).
Had this dead specimen of a dead goat's heart. Gah, it was smelly. :{ (Bxtch! You have a heart of a goat yknow! how could you be so heartless? :D )
DnT, the curve shape very hard to cut, cannot bend it properly!! ahhh! ):
Dust making me sneeze. Still.
Halfway finishing the homework, which is for absent that time. Zz, cannot go training or tomorrow sure kena by ah cher. Getting quite worried now.

:soiiiii

2009-08-15T21:00:00.009+08:00

READ BETWEEN THOSE LINES,
Wassup? Zz,
Not talking about school.
Btw, pet society rocks. 10000000x better than habbo! (x
Watched 'Splat' with Savonne, Niesa, Jia Min & Irfan, at the art house, to support our dear friends Imran, Zul and Zeeq, who played us out. At least 1/8 people there. (:
I knew it from the moment they mentioned.... ___ ok.
*pay the hospital bill for our sprained ankles.
So didn't understand what it was about but some was really funny! :D
Right. During the intermission, went to starbucks, was late. Ran back, yes I can run in heels too. Like idiots like that.
But Savonne and I took off our shoes and ran in the dark. Damn syiok and retarded! Can we do it again, please?! :D Hahahaa. Havock.
Niesa & Jia went back after intermission. Stayed outside bit emo.
Met everyone outside later. Anywayz, mrs poh's daughter is really cuteeeee! (x
Reached home 12am++++
Saw this really cool woman @mrt! Savonne was there too.
Wanna be like her when grow up, so style. Her swearing also got class. Laughs.
Most people I knew back there, were like that. Now exposed to only one type.
Prolly going back there end of year, or at least somewhere close to newcastle. :Dyou'd never know this,
i wouldn't know how to talk to you, will give whatever it takes to change, 'cos you're worth it, especially if that's how you think.
Savonneee. :D :D

Qi Yun<3
more pigtures on facebook? {:

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

2009-08-13T20:19:00.004+08:00

:o styloooooo
Oright. From yesterday aye? (: Mm, okay it went quite 'normal', in class. Hahaa.
How to remember? :s
Did something productive like paying attention in class! (: Haha.
Right after recess, followed Brenda to dnt room.
Gr, Cheena noobshitzxz! :D Don't even know you. You see say very suay.
Then she ask "you know her meh?" then you say bai gui.
Careful yeah, skali got white thang following you it's not me. (: 7th month coming somemore..wahaha.
Gonna re-do dnt 'cos of some measurement problems for the design, so doing new one maybe(?), have until next week. :B
Thanks Amelia Phua!!
Had oral after school, the waiting time took quite long, can say.
jie mng walked pass doing craps so started laughing.
By the time it ended, 3/4+? No point going training(though badly wanted to)
Followed Jia Min, Savonne &co. go amk windowshop.
Met Fang Ying @ tp mrt to train to healing& financial breakthrough service. :D
Missed her lots, (: (;
There was still lot of tickets @ 6++ (: cool eh.
It was awesome.
It ended at 10.
Train-ed back home while studying, reached home and studied more. Awww, lol. :D

School today bad can. No mood at all.
Came in late, teachers decided to block the back of the court.
Had to come in by the front.
Lost nametag, have to wear the deng biggg tag until it comes.
First lesson, PE, watch people play bball 'cos having headache. ): I wanna play!!
For drama, came late. Waited for Ash to change back before going.
Besides coming late, teacher anyhow scold. So for self-respect of a human, went confront her, later on.
You teach drama, we know.
Don't need to exaggerate what I'm doing until so drama. Secondly, you very good at drama can act well. (: That's exactly tone of what you telling.
Took science test after school. Followed Niesaa to bugis to buy her dress. O: (:It was sexxxy. Hahaa.

2009-08-11T18:17:00.020+08:00

Our shadow

ND 7/8/09
superbaaby&superrrgirl @ playground. :D
supergirl tries to flyyy.
Alvin. lol.

Aiseymannn! Cross dressing uh Irfan!! :D lolololololol,

Well, those are me best nd shots. Sorry.

What a boring update.
Continuing from sunday, went to Natasha & Felicia's house after service.

Watched ndp, laughed asses off. Hahaa. Seriously.

How lame. (:

Kept surfing channels. Ohmy, ladygaga! Tomorrow's her concert manzxz! O:
Watched bit off the idol auditions, laughed like crazy uhhh.. (: They're so funny aite.
Had lots of stories to share, listened too. (: Hahaa.

Took walk until 10.30 like that on the road. Tried headbanging with Natasha.

& other crazy things. :D

School today didn't bring lots of stuff. +includes extended prototypes and dNt journal.
ThankGod for superabounding grace.
The rest don't wanna say. :D

Stayed back for geog extra lessons.

This is snowball {:

2009-08-08T20:49:00.010+08:00

With a plastered smile,
& I can't think straight anymore, have no idea what I'm doing.
This pain inside is more than I can bear. Don't know what it is.
Anything seems able to trigger it off.
You don't need to understand. When will these tears disappear and this screaming stop?

Getting worse than yesterday.
There was level meeting today, train-ed with Ying2 to orchard, from then on we were lost. :s
Met Rebs, Jun Hao, Coachval and some dive peepo, and bus-ed there, then met twins inside.
EH, THANKS SO MUCH AMELIA PHUA SHI HUI! (:
LOVEYOULOTS,
LOVEYOULOTS,
What you texted really touched me, thanks. (:

Promises made by me are meant to be kept.
Ying2, Bekah & yourstruly

2009-08-06T22:05:00.013+08:00

GOOD , BAD & UNDECIDED! (: &superbaaaby lurveee.
Couple of paranormal events happen this week @ anderson, some praiseGod I wasn't there!! Hahhaa. But still, it's awful la. Don't scared Niesaaa supergirl! I'm here for yaw! <3>

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So what happened? :/ Think on Weds it had been worse for Niesa& co.

During recess, me, Joseph, Jia Hao & Hyqel went up to 5th floor handicap toilet, next to the artroom, to investigate uh.

Tell you, when you walk there it'll be supercoldddd, it made me heart beat like crazy.
Jia Hao flushed it, then the water sprayed outwards all over. The mirror(beside the bowl, not across) started dripping with water. :s Dustbin started moving, all the while was praying in tongues oright, holding the door. Joseph was like "guail*n, the ghost angry le", didn't know whether to laugh or scream. Got other things also? Don't wanna say.

Right, all were late for class. :D

During that lesson aye, Savonne told my skin turned to black, when I looked at it, it was grey and went back to normal. O:

Predictions right this time. (:

Had 3tests after school, think screwed them all!
Seriously, haven't seen some of those kinda questions in assesment books before. GRR, chionged with it. Rest of me clique &most classmates only had two.
So I started late, and then everyone pangseh-ed me to see 5th level!Saaavonne superstylo saw something, rest of us only heard footsteps, inside.

Stood in the dark, inside, with Jun Da, Hyqel & Jie Ming.

Felt uneasy, but not scary. :D Hurhurr. Went in lot of times.

Can't remember what happened, there were some things that happened. :s

Nevermind, I just plead the blood of Jesus everywhere. :D

PANG Si Xian. lolol.

It's Amelia Phua & If you think this looks normal, wait until i zoom in...
blood stains that are in a straight line on the mirror that i hadn't noticed before and THAT's not Jie Ming's hand.

2009-08-03T23:05:00.010+08:00

If you're a guy - post this as my kind of girl.
if you're a girl - post it as my kind of boy.

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
oh! absolutely! haha(jkjk) (:
2. Smart?
same level of intellegence, so it's easier to agree on things.
3. Preferred age?
same age, or 1-3 years older. hehe
4. Preferred height?
bit taller.
5. How about sense of humor?
this is essential. some guys bore me. lol. :D
6. How about piercings?
sure, but not too many and not in awkward places can. (:
7. Accepts you for who you are?
yep, or how else eh? ):
8. Pink hair?
hm, we'll see about that. (:
9. Mushy or no?
nope, sweet talk makes me cringe. haha. :P
10. Thin or fat?
not too thin not too fat, can already. O:
11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
anything, i'm very open. (:
12. Long hair or short hair?
short, but not botak can already. :D
13. Plastic or metal?
metal! :D
14. Smells good?
yeah.. who wants a smelly partner? :o
15. Smoker?
heavy smokers smell bad..nah. ):
16. Drinker?
yep, but just don't drive. (:
17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
nah, must be extraordinary! :D
18. Muscular?
no need. but have muscles can already, so i got someone to fight with la hor? haha (:
19. Plays piano?
sure, but play drums/guitar is more fun, OR triangle! haahha. :D
20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
that's cool, but not neccessary. :o
21. Plays violin?
save it for your sister, hahaa i'm so mean. :9
22. Sings very good?
sure, i'll be your fan then. ;-)
23. Vain?
Yaa, but not til the extent that it irritates me pls. ahhaha :D
24. With glasses?
it's oright, but lenses not so thick pls. heh. (:
25. With braces?
okk, but it'll be harder to kiss. lol. jk :D
26. Shy type?
anything.
27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
rebel.
28. Active or passive?
active. :D
29. Tight or bomb?
aye? O:
30. Singer or dancer?
sing and dance! sing and dance! :D :D hahahhaha
31. Stunner?
yeah :D
32. Hiphop?
yup. stylo sey.
33. Earrings?
sure, but cannot be on the gay side or wear danggling earrings please. :D
34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-until-you-drop?
awww, i'll drop before you start counting. ): ): ahhaha
35. Dimples?
okkkk!
36. Bookworm?
no.thank.you :s
37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
sweet? but not neccessary :P
38. Playful?
yesyes! me likes! (:
39. Flirt?
flirtiness is okaay. but don't overdo it with others. :s
40. Poem writer?
err ok, then i'll help you rhyme. hahaa. :s
41. Serious?
serious at the right time. guess must have some measure of depth. :9
42. Campus crush?
given up the idea of someone you're going to see everyday. :s
43. Painter?
not wall painter right? :o yeah, heard they have their temperments and that's cool. :B
44. Religious?
Christian, but not legalistic and must be under grace! :D
45. Someone who likes to tease people?
the more you tease, the more i want you. :P lol
46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
no idea.
47. Speaks 20 languages?
hahha, not neccessary. speak 19 different languages will do. ahah. nuh.
48. Loyal or faithful?
both about the same. but loyal is more imp to me, being faithful is only in that commitment, to some people. after they're done they think it's okay to badmouth the other party.
49. Good kisser?
yes. :D
50. Loves children?
you'd have to be crazy to hate them. (:

stuck in 2007,!

2009-08-02T18:02:00.015+08:00

tattoo

hallo hallo, what'd you think you're doing there? HHAHAHA
it's a really brilliant picture, sadly i'm not there.

SAY HELLO TO GOODBYE , i doesn't care! :B
i'm APATHETIC(apathy), but unlike yaw not pathetic.

In case you haven't heard...

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over

i'll love you forever, forever is over

We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight

So don’t call me crying

say hello to goodbye

Cause just one sip would make me sick

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over

I’ll love you forever, but now it’s over-love drunk,Boys like girls

Within a month, so many things can change. It's really frightening when you think about it again.

What's most frightening.. is. :o

Lot of things came up, like dad kenna sent to police station by a taxidriver as he was $3 short of

the fare. He asked the driver to go to the atm machine, draw cash somemore.
Driver is racist(not the first time, other remarks cannot imagine).

The rest of the happenings is for me to know, and for you all to find out! (:

This week, sore eyes, throwups and sorethroat. RAWR, :s

missed 1/7 like crazy okk.

For today @ churchservice :

-don't sacrifice truth for one person, after seeing how they behave, change your mind about the truth, in Jesus' finished work.

-we're prisoners of hope! There's no escape. :D

-let nothing of this world have dominion over us, for we are under His grace, that is sufficient to break every bondage of us, and others with our weapons of laying hands. Don't disqualify yourself(mentally) of your blessings. They're gift from daddyGod we recieve without struggling.

Sometimes think that rather suffer alone than hang with people that suck the life out of me, in the most unlikely place, too. Pretense.
that was painnnnn

When you are brokenhearted, i am close to you. psalms 31:18

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

For I am your greatest encourager. 2 Thessalonians 2:16

Delight in Me and I will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires. Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you then you could possibly imagine. Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager. 2 Thessalonians 2:16

One day, I will wipe every tear from your eyes. Revelation 21:3-4
And I will take away all the pain that you have suffered from this earth. Revelation 21:3-4

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. John 17:26

2009-07-26T10:00:00.009+08:00

these tears falling of dry lashes,
nobody will get to see. each hurt,
cuts like a knife. let's be real,
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We look more like ducks than kissing. Hahaaaaa.

Circle line-d to bishan to pass Jia Min tickets, left for expo, train-ed there as well.
Queue-d at the entrance with Abigail(level3) and her school friends, hahaa. They were very funny. :D :D
Something I saw, a re-occuring event from last year made my mood change completely.
It was about same time, same place. Only the other way round. :(
Queue-d with them running around(heh), and were so close to the door but Natashaaaa called to say she reached and wants her tickets. Laughs,
So went out. Talked bout etf and more random nonsense, like skinnyjeans. Haah,
Called Jia Min, who was still at angmokio. :s
Met Faith, Grace. Re-queued. D:
Became happier once the concert started. (:
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Stayed in the audi for worship. Cried again. Lao bu(real one, not Niesa or Brenda) called me come join her level6 'cos she saw long-lost brotherrrr-__- he also text me come up find for.
Sat with mother, he three rows in front and went home half-way. Laughs, stupiddd. :P
G was in front of me. O:
Worship was awesomeeee anyway. :D
Message was more awesomeee. HEH. So funny. ahaha.
Not settling for anything less than the taste of Jesus' perfection, He's a practical God who gives the freedom to taste, in partaking and then to see His goodness in our lives, to change it. We need Your grace and love more than ever, to restore our souls.

Thankkkyou Jesus, I'm coming to you for REST, I'm casting my cares to You, for You care for me. Even when no one else can understand. Allowing to enter righteous and bold, You take away my frustrations and pains to allow my train of thought to be in Your light. It doesn't matter how anyone else sees it, it's between You and me. In my darkest hours, You're there seeing me through. Convicting me of righteousness and Grace in the areas I fall short in. You heal me. Sore eyes, be gone. I'm not settling for anything less but everything I need, is found in you. Therefore, I can reject rejection and reject the weapons of my enemies/frienemies will remain. Amen.

Looked for Bel, Cheryl & co. after service. Ate.
Starbucks, then went to makes glasses when found my mother. Power's gone up. :(
I reject, reject that! :P

haven't i got you right?
or are you just another one of my mistakes? :(

2009-07-23T18:30:00.015+08:00

C'MON SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE IT! :D NOW, STEP ASIDE. Hahaa.
*Pigture's right beloooow! :D
Can't really remember what's been happening today. Not at my cousin's house today.
Slacking nowadays. Don't feel very motivated.
Always chiong-ing last minute. I know that should change with the pressure and all.
Aah, maybe bit more time eh. :( CCAs have started, didn't really know until today.
Hanged around the playground after school. Needed to settle some things.
Now more confused bout everything, lol. Wish you both the best for whatever's meant to be.
Then Brenda and Niesa are now my mother. So pro, have two. o.O Wonder who's the father. O:
We all changed to class tee. Niesa tried . Uh-oh. Heh.
Went to play bball with Alvin & co. , quite fun. :D
After that hanged round the blocks. Laughs,
Boon Jia luvz to shout "AYE" to random passerbys so continued for her the alphabet song until very stylo.
Two more days until zone bby!
stop your patronising, nobody likes it so shuddup
EEYER, THIS PIGTURE DOESN'T COMPLIMENT EXACTLY.
BUT I LIKE IT. :D IT'S ME & GOH MANNING
I DREW THIS IN CLASS. HAHAA.

BACK VIEW

FRONT VIEW

Introducing you to Serene's baby. :}

ILOVEBABY. (: LOL,

It's Qi Yun & class tee. This way she won't lose face ever!

2009-07-21T17:37:00.010+08:00

TAKE A STEP FORWARD ,the risks involved are all worth it.
JIA MIN LOOKS LIKE ME IN HERE. Similar eh? She could be my long-lost sister. Pure chinese version only(:
ILOVESAVONNESIMTHEMOST! HAHA!

Silly girls(:

On the green green grass. Lallas~

There wasn't any school today for Anderson. Thanks to the last year's 'N' and 'O' level results being in the band one. HEHE.

When our time comes it shall be the same. Amen.

Went to vivo with co.

It was lame. :D

But had fun.

Maybe it took too long to understand the meaning of love and like-like.

To get a glimpse of it. But I'm ready to learn now.

What's left to hold back any longer?

Still, Jesus' love is the fullest completion of love, and it satisfies everyday.

2009-07-20T18:44:00.009+08:00

BOOOOOOO
\m/

That hat can pass for fireman's helmet (;

Deng. Here goes.

Chaotic first lesson.

For maths already completed what not to do. :s

In the drama room, helped kill all the ants for everyone. ^^ yay

Free period at the end of the day, helped yaya do his tution homework and went to slack at the back of class.

Needed trainers badly for napfa run.

Train-ed to YCK mrt to meet my dad to get them. :D
But missed a stop. Cripes! D; Quite funny! (;

The trainers not my size. It was my mum's one.

When reach stadium there, hands shaking like electricuted person. :(

My friends helped me stop the trembling, crowded around so everyone thought I was crying.LOL-__-

Thankkkkyou, luvz! :D Savonne, Niesa, Jia Min, Qi Yun, Amelia, Phyllis &co.

Watched Jia Min & co. scotchtape their mouths up. (:

For the run, was right at the back with Qi Yun. Then overtook people to the front, could have ran much faster if the sun wasn't so hot. :( Haven't done that for a long time.

Ran an extra round too.

Went to check whether was done or not with the machine and then said couldn't find my number , then continued running and the run shouted "oi girl done already!" , heckcare still ran, walk. Laughz,

On the way home Brenda couldn't finish her 'beer'. So she passed it to me.

EVIDENCE:

I did not smash the root beer bottle. (:

2009-07-19T10:20:00.004+08:00

CAME TO THE RESCUE
This isso cool

Here's brief update in a rush now(well, kind of) :s.
Yesterday met Jochebel @ j8, then we train-ed to cityhall and walked in the rain to suntec. :D
It was coach & twins birthday. Met Jun Hao and Jeremy at macs there to do birthday card.
Don't know they talking about how to disturb teachers. :D *takes down notes* AHAH
Needed glue, popular was closed( tsk, 1pm somemore!!). Went to carrefour(sp) instead.
Jerome help cut the picts. Blahblah,
Met Ying2 on the way up! (: ,and the rest in the audi.
-Peoples love change but God's love stays the same, fresh everyday and demonstrating His love new everyday, it's not demonstrated by the circumstances I'm stuck in, but by His power that can turn things around for me. The security in IT. It's limitless~
-These mountains, I'll be above it. They'll be cast into the sea. Amen.

The rest's personal, but it spoke at the right time. LOL.
Anywayz, after service went to kuofu to celebrate.
Played armwrestling with Rachie. Position was not quite right.
But peepo say I've got muscles!! I tell them no it's fats. :D
Actually it's 2/3 muscles, 1/3 fats. But why should my arm be a third of anything? D;
Carried on with our wrestling outside. LOL Cara videoed it. :s
Rach did her speech while I disturbed her like wth. Hahhaa.
Jun hao came out to watch our illegal gathering say gonna call police or whatever, and pointed to Rach's drink and said it contains drugs in it. And guess what! She dropped it! O: O:
Even better, he was sitting on the chair and then Jeremy came start pushing it and he kinda stuck on it. Then the chair broke 'cos of the pushing. Woah! Pro sia. :D Hahaaha.
Train-ed back with Ying2, Racia & Rachie. luvz, hehe

2009-07-17T17:45:00.008+08:00

GOT A VIBE YOU CAN'T DEFINE
weird O:

; Been seeing a lot of people I know around lately. LOL, but yesterday it made me very very happy. :} But mother with me so can't do much.
No longer staying at my parents house. So went to aunts house stay at hougang.
It can't be normal. I know it's not. Full-story? Nah. Who cares. Haah.
At least got to talk to teman about it.
Let Savonne know as well. Thanks lots eh! :D
Hm, so this morning woke at 4.30am.
Waiting for the deng bus 45 until 6.40am!! o.o
So uncle send me to school. Very kind. :D Thanks.
Cousins are at halls for now, until tomorrow. O: O: awww, :( *missed
School was ok today.
Talked to Jia Hao bout habbo card. LOL. And lots of random stuffs to Brenda, Samuel & co. Laughs,
Teacher pressure me. >.< Now feel so shameful for the 'wrong' reasons. Heh?
Please la cher. Not doing it for you. Makes me wanna do it more badly than ever. :P
Not your dog can.
Didn't play boxing with Jun Da akas YAYA, instead smack here slam there. More fun maybe? :s
Lame okay.
Jia Min went back early!!!! Hahaa, -sadz-
After school went to 1/3, fool around with Trisha & NIESA.
Saw some of my friends there. :D Miss them lots.
Took 153 with Savonne to some macs with many chongboon sec peepos.
Walkwalk there, and then went playground.
Started emoing then end up crying after talking. Played music anyway and made friends with a kid playing. Hehe. But thanks tons for the advice Saaavonnee!! (:

Jesus, thank you for your faithfulness and unending mercies each day.
Although right now really can't understand why everything's going this way, what's the reason behind it. Praise you, for you've got it figured out before allowing it to happen.
Thank you that time is in your hands and my time spent, is committed to you and will be prospered. You've made a better way. Maybe this really is the last straw. O: O:
The truth inside of me says you'll never, no no, never forsake me.

'cos no matter how much i try i've never let go of you deep down, the happiness you've brought me since last year. i can't explain. i won't go on pretending. i don't know how to make a feeling stop.. i like you, so what? :D

2009-07-12T15:34:00.019+08:00

NO ONE WANTS TO BE DEFEATED
Guess who? Maths fail. Symmertery fail. Heh .

WE'LL SEE YOUR GLORY REVEALED
From yesterday had tution until 11.45am.
Planned to go for dg but once reached orchard mrt changed mind. :s
Texted many people then decided go take books go bishan lib study.
Study 3 hours straight, in-between textings and calls. No prankcalls. Promise. l:
Many people weren't free to meet so went home continue with work. Facebook-ed. Slept.
Today, first service-d with Whitz.
It was ps Mark preaching!! :D So funny manz!
We fall when we forget our identity, worth and value in God's eyes. Everyone's looking for love and a place to hide. Thing is not to be hard in yourself or others, God is still working in us all, condemnation kills and leads us to places we don't wanna go! D;
Sweet songs of mercy
The heaven's embrace
Glorious, the sound of your name
Your people sing praise
After service queued tickets for Fang Ying and Amabel, then all of us cannot make it, so gave away my tickets after coming back from Raffles City with Whitz! Walkwalk there, ate chippies and take a lots of nice pigs.
It's just us?
Ready to kaboom
Don't make us bored. It's not good sign.

2009-07-10T19:29:00.007+08:00

BACK TO WHAT WAS NEVER SAID
Kenneth Wong and Boon Jia Min(:

Woke up this morning screaming for 5 more minutes, those in EL class will understand what it means. Lzb of course.
Ya ya, very descriptive.
New VP walk into class then she started
scolding, "Whatever way you've been brought up regardless of your race..." blahblah, idk. She was glaring at me when she said the word 'race' eh. Frigggggg!
Wtf, I never do anything!! D; only stare,
Rest of the day was peaceful.
Understand lesson better thanks to sci cher.
Lits was cool. :D
Last period, CE, just felt like it was directed to me in some way.
It's not that wanna continue this way. But really. :(
After school, Savonne, Jia Min, Jun Da, Joseph, Kenneth, Samuel, Jia Hao and Frankie went to Hub and had planned to watch 'drag me to hell' but it wasn't showing anymore so watched the 'haunting in connecticut' think it was worse. Scarrrry! D:
Not used to watching this kinda thang.
But Joseph and Jia Hao were very helpful by shouting gl and waneyyy. LOLOOL, make me laughhh.
But the last part how the ghost left was when the mum quoted psalms23, and all of them disappeared. wooo, Jesus! ily. (:
After that they still wanted to watch ice age, but no student price so followed them to Engwah Cinema, there was free membership there. So all signed up. Zzzz, 'Cept me.
So Samuel show me his new 'visa' card so I snatch and run off. Haah, lame oh.
Run after for it, then I threw it to Savonne. Ehhh, anyway he got it back. Haha:D
Went to the playground.
Then left them to watch their movie, train-ed to Novena to buy something and then went home.

Why is it so much easier with you than with them?
Breaking a promise is one thing, leaving it broken is another.
The irony of it.
__________
Back to what was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable
Come and take me away- Take me away, Avril Lavigne.

people say i've changed a lot and it may not have meant for the better..

2009-07-09T18:58:00.015+08:00

CAN'T EXCITE YOU ANYMORE

Rushed through homework around 5 in the morning, not understanding a single word of it.
First lesson started tearing again. Very sad. :(((( why lose control again?
Thanks loves for the hug, ;)
Niesa and Savonne!
The next lesson a bit better.
Recess play in class.
Brought homework to complete to the lib with Kaith during MT period, ;D then cher ask us run errands so took bit of time, when reached lib talked to Sulaiman. He's very funny sey. :D
Kind of chaotic today, D;
School has one case of h1n1. :/

Stayed back after school, then went home 'earlier' for tution. HELP.

Jia Min, Niesa, Savonne = lovees

Step emo sia.
That's me about to get whacked. HAHA!

IGNORANCE IS YOUR NEW BEST FRIEND

2009-07-07T19:49:00.006+08:00

SMELL THE RAIN POURING DOWN ON YOU, INHALE
Major differences eh.HEHEHHHHH

Chiong to school this morning, wasn't that that late.
Sat with Niesasasasa today! :D
Today some funny, and not so funny things happened.
Learnt photoshop for CE! woohoo! :D
I could go on to say more but nevermind I'll study now!
Cheerup Savonne, he was never worth your tears. It sucks hard. I know.
Urghmph.

faith sees our God-given abilities rather than our impossibilities.
Just going to let You teach me now.

2009-07-06T18:32:00.013+08:00

NOT HERE FOR YOUR ENTERTAINMENT

Woke at 6.30am.
Reached Amelia's house for project about 11.15. :s
Got those damn library books on the way.
All of us kept laughing. Ohgod! HAHAHAHH.
In-between just sat around listening to Qi Yun's j-pop and other music, giving ideas for their other projects since ip was the last they wanted to complete. :D
Cabbed down to j8, so spent money on taxi fare instead of treating gang.
Gang had been to watch Drag Me To Hell. D: Eeyer!
Imran , Haziq pissed me off big time.
Make big deal of hiding Savonne's chicken. -.-
LOL, and how old are you? 15? ;/ They think chicken can fly because it has wings, but really chickens CAN'T FLYY!! Then they stained everyone's stuff. ygvbnejjrertryuyur
Made me whack them.
Ohhh, nearly made another piercing. OHSHITESSS!
Lost 20 images of random stuff. :{
Completed homework by 9.40pm, watched angus thongs and perfect snoggings. Heh hehhh. OHOH, HAPPY YOUTH DAY BABEHHHH! :D

give me the green light

2009-07-05T18:47:00.016+08:00

GIRAFFES ARE GONNA TAKE OVER THE WORLD!!
girawr-ffe's are the coolest!! x333

Kind of wish things could have stayed that way. :D cool eh?

Didn't get to sit with Fang Ying or Amabel today. :(

Did still get to see Viv, Bel, Rach, Racia, Cheryl & Danielle (:
Yeah, I can understand people(including myself) are still growing in our Abba Father's love and soon to be conformed to this image but these actions you are showing..just makes it look like you are more under law than grace.

It looks like it's been going on too long.

Was very very pissed after hearing that from Audrey.

Before that, and talking to her, another gundu stalked another friend to shout ccb at her.

Why, why? You have uh? :D

I'm not afraid to whack when you ask for it.

Provoke me like you already have, you have no idea what I can be capable of, so don't be foolish.

Cannot guarantee you won't get whacked.
Back to Jesus, the number 1 reason I'm at church for, the only reason will be going to recieve is Jesus, nothing else.
So I want to renounce all my doubts in Jesus.
Mm, before going suntec went to orchard central. wooo,
12storeys! (:

Headache's completely gone.

By your spirit alone will I cry

2009-07-04T19:08:00.005+08:00

WITH ALL THE BEST INTENTIONS..
Heyo. HJmSERENE ILYuuu
Webdings are so cool eh? :D
Heh. Went for dare today.
Awesome awesome. This semester is defined on esteem and where that esteem lies in.
It will all become more than mentally true it's going to become a gospel truth in our lives.
"Your love broke through the hardness of my heart"...
"Love has spoken we believe"....
- both from two songs about this unconditional love of Jesus. There's a portion in us activated by this love. Yesssa,
FOR A PEOPLE UNDESERVINGGG!!!! (:
After service, my cousin gave me a lift from aljunied.
She's just got her liscence.
Ohgod. At all those traffic jams we were panicking!! Shutupanddrivedrivedrive.
Ok, going to do my homework now ^^

where emotions come last

2009-07-04T00:21:00.004+08:00

STORM YOU BROUGHT IN

yO me loves.

Privated my blog now!

Deprive some looneys for a while!!

2009-07-03T23:37:00.011+08:00

Taken some time in Feb, playground mirror reflection.
Bad quality, but still a memory. =p
They're me lovees!

Hey. Haven't update for a while.
ME & MY BOYF BROKE UP 'COS OF H1N1. :D
woah random much.. nonsense la.

Strength is what I need right now. Tired of falling sick. :(
Tired of this loneliness within. All that is happening right now, it's the last bolt of fire from the enemy's side.
Praise Jesus, that He alone fights my everyday battles and it belongs to Him.
Rejoice at the enemy's defeat 2000years ago. Yay yeah.
Talked to coach e today. Seriously la, this few weeks been my breaking point.
Grace has seen me at my worst.

2Corinthians 12:9-10 -And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs , in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.- 2Corinthians 12:9-10

Word for today is to be just radical.
I will never never fall sick again! Amen!
For His strength is made perfect in the area of my weaknesses, which is very often falling sick His strength will forbid any bacteria to touch me. Despite every weird thing that happened at home this week, praise God His grace is sufficient. Salvation, peace and protection are here.
The trouble is believing it's already there. I walk by faith and not by sight.
Can't wait to go back to school.

2009-06-30T15:47:00.004+08:00

WITH A SENSE OF POISE& RATIONALITY..
Played bball in the morning, our group win 10-0. Hands down, we were short of one person somemore .
After that don't know what happened. Airborne la. lol.
There's a bunch of balless idiots.. Where got such thing one.. Talk so much. -____-
Nevermind, I rest secure in Christ and no other thing. Pui, kns. ^^ HAHAAAH.
___
Saviour I come
Quiet My soul, Remember
Redemptions hill,
Where your blood was spilled, for my Ransom

Everything I once hold dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the Cross, where you love poured out
Bring me to my knees, Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself, I belong to you
Lord Lead me,Lead me to the Cross

You were as I
Tempted and Tried, HUMAN
Word became flesh
Bore my sin and death, Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart

Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart to fade- Lead me to the cross, Hillsongs

OH, RID ME OF MYSELF I BELONG TO YOU. JESUUUS. :D
Although this is the most insanely evil part of my life.
I know there is a purpose, a way to make it be to Your praise and glory, before I know it. Another closed chapter of my life.
You will deliver, you will provide. Your arm is mighty to saaave!

Closing this blog soon. 'Cause don't know who the airborne is reading it

2009-06-29T15:18:00.009+08:00

And i'm not shaking i'm not letting go,
until you arrive and everything comes to life -hillsongs, freedom is here

___________

What to say about today? Mm, very slack.

Spent the first period, after assembly in class, viewing presentation slide on h1n1.

How educational! HAHAHAHAHAH. (Notice that people of
only 20 and below get it, really attacking our generation.)
In-between lots of announcements.
History was the best yo! So funny! :S
Congrats to Brenda and Syakir for promoting to chairman. =)
Also to the councillours(sp)
CE teacher didn't turn up, although he's there?
So class went noisy. The VC was like ,"Everybody follow Clare sleeping in class."

Lololol,

Then woke up.

Get well soon Ash and Sandra.

After school, followed Ashwini B to bubbletea shop. :B

Reached outside the house then Savonne & co. call me go hub.

But opened the door got a shock that dad was in so can't go out now.
TRAPPEDDD.
You know I'm not worth it don't waste time

Jesus please gimme the strength to go on.

Please.

Oh, don't think will be updating as much?

2009-06-28T17:15:00.009+08:00

YO! Updating from suntec now yo.
Free access! :D
Feeling moodless at the moment, like something has been missing from life again.
Cried for so long last night.
Stupid insence burner the stupid neighbour put outside my house and weird stuff going on since holiday started.
Told them to please move it. Then they say no where else to put.
Put at your house la. -.- omg.
God answered lots of prayers today.
Going freelance now. That means no portfolio!! Yay.
Went for first and third.
Now always hang out with the level4, as bad as hanging out with ah peks. l: For that, I'm stuck-up la.
Walkwalk at bugis before coming back.
Nobody to talk to la.
But also don't want... :( Ohman. Urgh. Argh.
And school starts tomorrow?
:(

Whatever's inside it never comes out right. :( :(
What do you do when your tears freeze?
______________
&*[edited]*#/
I've tried not to let anyone in until now
I guess conversations never allow
and every time I wonder what's real you make me feel...

You make me feel like a lavender sweater
when I'm caught in bad weather,
In my Volkswagen Jetta
You make me feel like a complete work of art
when I'm just falling apart
A really nice piece of art - nice piece of art , fm static

Heard it on Jia Min's blog I think, really nice song.
So addicted to it uh.

OH, AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE TO MY BELOVED CHERYYYYL TEOW!!!!!

2009-06-26T16:07:00.010+08:00

BEAR THAT IN MIND TONIGHT.. (:
What happened was significant enough to make me indirectly realise how much would be wasted if things went on this way.
It's something unavoidable.
I want out. Altogether. And far way from it. Now.
Other things..like how it could have an effect on a behaviour.
That was beyond what was bargained for.
Guess it's right about what they say, "sin takes you further than you want to go."
Sin is just missing out the best on what God has for you.
Praise Jesus that it is written that it no longer has dominion in my life, only grace and truth prevail.
Maybe, just lately, not reflecting could just made it all turn bitter.
There are next weeks concerns coming up. All those 'what if's blaring out in my brain.
I'm casting them to you Jesus. That does not mean I'm not coming to terms with them,
but identifying them to be reigned over is so much better.
I need help.
I need grace.
It's what is freely given to me as a gift.
I recieve it over again.
Then remembered from last dare's message, shouldn't be the one to be wallowing in the dust.
Is that what's been happening?
If it is then,really need things to go back to the way they were before, only more restored. Amen.
Thank you God that I can come before you just as I am,all the way that I did, uncondemned ,still blessed and able to recieve. Despite it all. Only now I realise, and see that was and is truly undeserved grace.
Thank you again that Your work in me is still manifesting, but just not yet complete.
Please wash this past out..out of history..erase it from the minds of everyone..

:( tight in the throat

OH, AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY SI XIAN? ;D

I feel the pressure it's coming down on me.
It's turning me black and blue. Ooh whoa,
You left me on the side of the road, and now
I've got no place to go.You brought the flood.- escape the fate, the flood

2009-06-24T16:28:00.019+08:00

[*edited//#*]
Calmed down already. :/
But it's still not okay, okay?
Felt like I lost everything, and changed and this happened.
Not even for a return of some acceptance for real.
Only now then know that's what you've been thinking all along.
Only now then I know. :s
It's fucking awful.
Leaving it unspoken.
The discrimination.
To be admitted at the back of your mind.
In naivity, thinking things would change when I did some playing along. But no.
You've all messed me up.
All these defences.
Are only trying to help you all for it to be appropriate, and also to protect myself from the deep hurt that was coming.
Did it help? No.
It only came faster.
But you still dare to fucking post about me like that. Aah. Nevermind.
Nope. I really can't laugh at it.
It ain't my thang anymore. Hoho.
The things you said, blow it manz. All the shit you think.
You're the one screwed. Not me.
Learnt my lesson: Never give in to people or their dumb labels.
Help nobody at the expense of wrecking yourself.
If you do help, expect nothing in return. But this, too much.
Hmph, if you actually believed that about it..you're so sick in the head girl.
You need professional looking into.✖✖ツ BRRRRR,
BREEEE, Escape the fate rocks hardcorezxzx kay!

2009-06-23T18:55:00.007+08:00

Rachie Racia Jovial Cheryl + extra you-know-who
AWWWWWW

Danielle Cheryl
Your new fireman
YES! Yay. So screwed.
Cookiemonstuh and elmo
Those weren't our hands. :-s
Racia Rachie

The reason why i roll my eyeballs is justin sitting behind. D:< Zilian-ing at this ahbeng car. If it happens that you drive this car....please don't kill me....... (:
Need help with shoulderfreeze please!!!! Learning from cousin
Whit's brownbrown eyes! :)

Sum41!!!!!!! :D

Hello. Completed maths and science homework already. Heh. And the essay!
Still have dNt designs.. :s
Went to j8 to buy d.i.e(yes,that's its abbriviations!) workbook. Anymore homework? I don't know. Hahahahaha.
Subway-ed, saw devin & co. Must not forget to tell Amelia. LOL
On the way to popular saw Chin Kang and Zhi Quan, if I'm not wrong.
Haha? -___-
Bought hoodie and ring necklace after train-ing down to town. :X
I think school's should extend one more week. Why?
Because singapore is a small country. People are clumped together.
What's more it's a tropic area. It spreads faster. OBVIOUSLY!!!
If other bigbig countries infected so fast without contact with people, it's spread can't be controlled.
Please. Extend. Or. I.
Oh, and I like pork. No. Not really. Grrrr, D:

Keep your head still, I'll be your thrill

2009-06-22T13:31:00.005+08:00

Fish. Having sorethroat again.
Grr, and cold. -_-
Shoo flu shooo!
Weds going training. Gotta stop ponning.

Would be losing dignity if I never told you to fk off.

2009-06-22T13:25:00.003+08:00

Starting from Saturday, or should I say Friday night?Both my parents have been starting to hear stuff at night, a baby crying inside their room and some other noises such as, footsteps. Seeing stuff around the house move like the door would swing, the drawer open and shut by itself and dark figures. Nothing to say.
Things like that happened before came to church more to me since six.
Worst came in 2007. >.< My Jesus' power and protection better than any ghost buster. :D HAHA! Saturday went for dare. Sat with Ying! See? Made a new friend this week, have you? LOLOL,;D Pastor Gabriel(gst) preached! :D
Laughs, About our daddyGod's love for us! When we take a fresh look at His love for us, entrance of God's word brings light, every word refreshes our soul 'cause it's annointed. Every privilege to be used for Jesus name to be glorified. Really cool uh. This time, or so that's more each week clarified lots more. Superfunny-superannointed.
Suspected love was in the air for somebody and somebody, but went to confirm it then oh taken. Zz, hahahahahah. From skygarden listen testimony and Vivian's vision, then laughs, some people got so high manz, after which we went to koufu.
Ying, Rachie, Vivian, Jun Hao, Jochebel, Danielle, Cheryl, Racia.
They played some games. Watched. :D Mac-ed at marina with Racia and Andrew(tan not lim).
Then train-ed home. *dance round the house sprinkling annointing oil* Chey. Next day, (which's today just for the record) first service-d with Whitz.
Kfc-ed before that, mm, the twister meal is dang nice manz. :D Heh
Whitz has brown contacts. Woah. :O
She helped me take ticket for friend after service. Many thankyous with hearts to you. (: x333
Pet the pets at Vivian's dad's pet shop. Er, some mating. :x
She went home after going subway. :(
Looked for Rachie, Racia,Danielle and Jovial at wafflecottage place! (:
Vivian and Jochebel kept parading up and down pass us there with Joshua's guitar and other objects. O_o" Hur hurr.
After some time they stopped parading and decided to join us. Lololololol.
Rachie<3 and I left to walk around for abit, bumped into Meishi, Amabel, Jamie and Amanda and followed them to coffeebean. Charity came and left :( aww, They rocks okay.
Waited for Fang Ying at the carrefour lift, then it turned out we met her at level3 lift. :D
Third-ed. Sang 'in you I live' , believe that's something we haven't done for a long time. (: Almost completely different message from first? :o More cool though. I.AM.NOT.WHAT.I.AM.THROUGH.CREATION.BUT.REDEMPTION. :D WON'T.LET.MY.BRAIN.RULE.ME.FOR.IT.IS.SANCTIFIED.BY.THE.BLOOD.OF.JESUS.TO.BE. SET APART. :D Then pastor went on to talk about forgiveness of sin and how God lets them go as if they have never been committed and remission of penalty. Wow, at the last part of the service turned to the person beside us and proclaim their sin already remissioned and sent to the body of Jesus Christ, actually closed my eyes and visualised that effect of all sin being swallowed up into Jesus body at the cross so fast until nothing of darkness was left. That was when Bel and Viv prayed. :D Ying texted me during service hoping my dad will be saved. But something inside me tells me already is. (: Really love my dad lots now. Really want him to be saved. Because of so much he's recently seen me through. HAPPYHAPPY FATHER'S DAY! :D Also, God is good. Always faithful in His provision. Some of my friends cried during service but I think things will be a lot better now. Amen. Bonded a lot more through that happening maybe? Hanged around music cleff area. Cheryl and Danielle accompanied me buy my father's day present from toysRus. Had a lot of fun in there. (:
Card from popular bkstore. Then went back to our new hang out with the rest. Heh. Don't know what it is I like about today, but reminds me so much of good times last year. And I'm hoping to see more of that. Only better. If you're wondering why this post is waaay too long, that's the reason. I love today. Everyone left, waited for Viv's mum to finish shopping then could train back with them. Hmv-ed while waiting. Have some peektures from today. But too lazy to plug the usb in. Heeeeh. Met my lao bu(mother) @ j8 ,as usual. Hahaaaah. Reached home and dad liked his present and started using it to bully my lao bu. Hahahhh! OK, think from now on wanna be known as Serene, not clare.'Cause that was my God-given name. Yup.Third service did say something about names. It's about time.So yeah you know what to do. I'm sorry if this post too boring for yaw.

2009-06-16T15:07:00.013+08:00

Laughs.
Speechless :X
I think my mouth too big, she thinks hers too small.

Last night prank-texted ___. Haha. OH HAPPY DAY!~ :D Laughs,
This morning Savonne call me go lend her bag. Lolol, Brought the white one out,
then she texted me it don't match her outfit and to go bring the pink one. Laughs,
So went back home take and became late. D:
She should consider fashion police as a future career. (:
Reached bishan station saw pk waiting there too. Haha.
He won't recognise me I hope. Pon school if not wrong..
Once a pk , always a pk! :D
Met Boon Jia Min and Savonne Sim at hub, started fooling around everywhere.
Went into ___ shop with them. Aaah. D; Go arcade with them more super-funny and washroom,wth?
After that, bus-ed to j8. Spotted more peepos.
Kfc-ed. Then they bus-ed to court to meet Jared, who'll be released today. Happy manzxz.
I gave them the directions! Hahahahaha.

Don't want to end up that way,
it looks the only road to take left.
Too bitter to turn back and be made how I used to be.
Reading the thoughts from what people see.
Tell me, it's never too late..
Please just wait.
It'll be over soon.
It's already June.
It's so different from 4 months back, I hate my life the way I'm trapped
By people around, not the ones I love who hate deep down.
In the tone they sound speaks louder than any action can.
Gave in too many times before, so now they do more
Makes me unsure.
8months back was hell.
Why didn't I realise this and change things while I could?
Never gonna fit into this box you've designed to put me into. No. Never.
It's sick. It's so sick.
You think I should?
Whatever I tell, you use against me. Whatever I do, you have some **** to say.
Gone so far, the further I go there's no desire to get back
Because I know I'll have to see your ****ed up face.
I don't pretend. What you see's what you get.I'm real. I'm proud of what I'm made to be. I'm not scared of what you think.
Put away all my defences, you're left with something you think you can make be at your mercy, your beck and call.
Don't need any person to play leader with me in my life.
Let me get through what I have to get through, I thank God for my parents who've gave me time and trust to find myself. Enough trust to let go, knowing I'll come back.
Anybody else apart from them, adult or peer have no right to say anything about my life.. Have you seen me cry before? Have you seen me get out of what I've broke down from? Are you my friend?
Trust the new clique more. They've been the best lah:D
OH, one more frigging thing. Do you still see me younger than you?
Maybe I won't say it to you in the face, you can never never never understand.
I don't badmouth or whatsover. I don't act upon feelings,I do my best to make decisions for the right things.
But this is what you all have done,time after time. I'm leaving it here for the purpose of it to be unidentified, but as well for it to be let out somewhere.
Some time it took to face the truth
You can turn back with "there's no evidence or proof", nobody's been watching(???)
If you knew what I'm capable of when you took advantage..

BE MY ESCAPE!

2009-06-15T22:04:00.005+08:00

Cripes. Some of my links are losttt..
Fill me in if I've left you out manzxz.
Like my playlist? (:
LOL.

Still haven't finish homework. Very slow or what.
Html screwed. Now can't even transfer from account. Grr,

All the while, you held the key..

2009-06-14T21:59:00.025+08:00

Like some gathering. *hold handphone strap take pict*
Fang Ying, Danielle(:
Cheryl-ryl-ryl
Can say candid, cos I was laughing szb. My mouth very big riiight? I like. (: Scary.
The lighting very good one ah?
BelBel (:
Vivi(:

When the stage is bare tonight
There's only you and me
When the curtains close
There's no pretense
I'm on my knees- all because of you, new creation church

Hahhahahaha. Hello.
First service-d with Whitz again. :D :D cannot stop singing boomboompow and hate this part.
Starbucks, bugis street after church. Bought what we wanted. yay?
No picture of her today(forgot). Sorry!
Had to chiong back to suntec bumped into Jing Ru & Pat! :D
Loved service today. It's truths are powerful.
Lololololol, laughed like one szb. Non-stop. Hardcore manzxzxz! But jokes were really funny by pastor. God is greater than our difficulties.
Every step we take is pre-destined according to His purpose for our lives to work out together for our good.
Clarified a lot: LOSE THE BATTLE AND NOT THE ENTIRE WAR. DON'T FIGHT FOR SOMETHING, AND LOSE YO PEACE! :D
Easier said than done for me, if it takes the longer or shorter way I'll still end up conformed to the image of Jesus. yay.
Aiyoo, trying not open my big fat mouth to complain but Empress Dowager and her co. should really stop rumouring people, suppose it's gone on too long already. Enough is enough already with the stuck-up attitude. Don't kpkb ley :( OKAAAY, here goes. Jesus thankyou that you've worked out something amazing to come should be to the praise of your glory. Yes& Amen.
From scars to stars. Test to testimony. Mess to message. Amen.
Saying all this by faith so feelings of that will follow soon. Lol.
So after service, hanged around somewhere near music cleff. Laugh, talk, camwhore and more random stuff. :B Then train-ed home with Fang Ying.
Met my lao bu @ j8. Hahahhaa. She thinks the name is cool. :D
Go http://accompany-me-for-the-last-dance.blogspot.com/ (Savonne's blog) to vote Brenda or Jia Min to win,their at the top. Quite fun uhz. I'm at 4% lowest. Hehehhh.
I wanna see who wins so do me a favour okay, readers?(:
Finished downloading yellowcard songs to my phone! :D
Don't wanna be so slooow. Dumb/stupid/slow. D:

Circles are what I've been running around, spiralling down.
With you.

numbed by you

2009-06-10T14:04:00.008+08:00

the longest try
Another thing very paisey happened, :x miscommunication again.
That's why I isn't there.. lol.
Will explain to the people I owe it to when they get back. Heh. l:
3pointer is still okayokay. But whaaaaat happened to my under basket? :-(
Any further than the pointer cannot.
Never play for a long time. Don't think can handle 3hour training.
Only by the grace of God.
I am not my own.
Going out to buy new shoes later and maybe other things.

You know anot, Bishan stadium track closed until next year, august, because of the ayg & 2010 youth olympics. Since January had renovation.
Now, no one goes in. Some other parts too.
Stupid or what?! Without anyone using the stadium, it'll be too unseasoned that until all the athletes will fall down. Hahaa.
So like what..residents can't used.. others can.
This time, next year we'll will see everybody so fat.

[*editted & continued]*#/
I'm baaaack. :D Haaah, and got what I wanted! Yay.
Counting through my songbook now.
This year- 13songs written
Last year- 9songs written (years before that, all so random one. Zz,)
ALL BY ME!:D LOL, soooo proud of meself!
Sigh. Got tune, but piano spoil cannot play out to write the notes down. Lololol,
Bet those at camp enjoying themselves uh.
You know Hillsong united's new album(tear down those walls) seriously rocks?!! (:
More Than Anything- HILLSONG UNITED
VERSE 1:
You knew us from the start
Our every moment
Though we fell apart
You chose to love us
Never letting go
You sent Your Son for us

VERSE 2:
He came into the world
With one desire
To lead us from our sin
Remove our failures
So we could meet with You
And know ourselves as Yours

PRE CHORUS:
In a world that tries to
Find a way in itself
Searching high and low
Looking for a meaning
We will hold to what we
Know is truth know is love
Life is found when we give
Ourselves all to You Lord

CHORUS:
Give it all give it all
To the One who is Life
Give it all give it all
To the One who is Life
Give it all give it all
To the One who is life
Saved mine

VERSE 3:
Our future in Your hands
Our lives with purpose
Sins now erased our past behind us
Never looking back
We know ourselves as Yours

BRIDGE:
This we know we have a new life
We are Yours now and forever
In this life all that we seek
To be with You more than anything

Each day that goes by, the more I know I need you more and more, everything works the way to allow you in it to bless it more and more. Wow, this is love. (: The one kind of love that never fails.
In Jesus, you name it, it's there!

2009-06-08T12:02:00.025+08:00

this is gonna be a long post(with peektures)!..

LOL, yesterday morning like paisey or what manz. So pro.
Supposed to meet Whitz at cityhall, but we both reach opposite ends of citylink at same time. :]
Then meet at bk, discussed school, some people. Really funny. Other words gossiping uh.
First service-d! Didn't pay much attention, someone's alarm kept ringing on. Hahahaa.
Think it's about, mm, no excuses! ;D Opps.
Kfc-ed, then cut through millinea to go marina. Whitz was running all over times bookshop, flipping through, while they were showing order of the phoenix on the screen, inside. Stood and watched. (:
Walked around, was looking for necktie and she was looking for scarf. o.o snowman/scarecrow.
But both didn't bring enough.
Citylink-ed back, she started pulling out my black extensions. So much really came off.D: Grossss. Hehe. Omgomg.
Train-ed back with her to bedok, then bounced back.

It's a fishdress
Blocking the underdressed mannequins for you :D Hahahaa. Looking so retarded.

Went back to marina, changed clothes and ate alone. Still had time left, so walked to the flyer to look.
Met Audrey at the queue to the recording, followed her to coffeebean. Then cut in with the radicals & divos<3.

Talked to Joanna and Jenny(genrev). Something made me realise, while talking with them, God didn't call me out just to bring just one testimony to my life, now that am reigning in Christ, He is going to bring forth so much more. They were great la,both of them. (:

Had seats at the audi. Screamed and shouted like one szb with the rest before it started but for Jesus' glory. Haha. Sat with Clara Goh and my dg! :D

When it started from take1 of the recording(of new creation's new album) onwards, the annointing just fell and kept singing and praying. It's another realm we're in. Taking us higher and higher. Something happened to me during worship, it's something very personal.

Could finally see things in a different light.
Those two songs we were singing for every take, was something I really needed at that moment

to stay and believe in those words we sang. There's really nothing I can depend on but Jesus unmeritted favour, Jesus seeing me through from the beginning, being with me through it all, started becoming more conscious of His presence in me and how only His grace can guide me back each time I fall. How long Jesus has been waiting for me to come back to recieve from Him,at this moment, so much more. Then worshipleader said something about removing every feeling of guilt and condemnation. And it has flee together with every consciousness of lack! :D

It's between me and Jesus, no one else around. *close eyes*

And I don't need to care what you people are staring angrily at me for....

There's a parable about the lost sheep. What's there about sheep(s) that is so special?

They go in flocks. This 99th sheep in the parable, may not have actually been a black sheep you know. Because black sheep will still walk together with the rest of the flock.

More likely, this sheep was driven out of the flock and it was sad so it ran away.

That's why the shepherd felt it was safe enough to leave the rest of the sheep, because they would stay together and not get lost.

That happens sometimes right? So yeah.

At the last take, jumped near the front, jacket kept coming off, and it was zipped somemore too. Hahahaha. Must be funny to look at.

Worship was just so awesome!!!!
@starbucks later, me love to zilian!! (:

2009-06-06T21:12:00.006+08:00

Hellooooo. Last night, drank coffee.
Insomnia, argh, serve me right... zzzzz.
So actually studied til 4AM. Geog & science. Nahh, don't be shocked.
It hasn't been first time done this week. Decided to be guai again. Indeed, a miracle! (:
A moth slept in my room with me until 8AM. Ahahaha x) Can hear the wings flapping all night.
Went for dare today, it rocked. Every beat to the praises of our awesome God, in this zone of marked favour that God's hands will always provide for us. So much of it, it becomes alive in us so we reign by it! By His blood there isn't any seperation when under the power of sin, to set me back free. Walking in that power.. IHahaa, ps Ben also covered smoking and other addictions. Only chimney smoke. [:
Felt more at peace with myself after hearing all that, so hey grace wins hands down. :D
Woah, so many souls saved in hundreds. Amazing testimony. :D

Running to the one who heals the blind
Following the shinning light
In your hands the power to save the world, my life
YAY
take take take it all!

Afterwards, kfc-ed with dg(Bekah, Bel, Rachie , Vivian & twins there today). Then headed to beach road by bus to buy camp equiptment.
Aww, can't make it then. :( Sorryyyyyyy! Uh,sorry no cure. So lame.
Watch them buy stuff, wait to pay. So hot down there. Crushed one green tea can and kicked together. Ahahaha.
Hahaa. Went home with Bekah. Praying there'll be no bloodshed between you all & them, all the best manz. Tell me all bout it, remember karate kick not boxing! Hand shorter than leggg... :D
OOOH, ALMOST FORGOT TO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAYS:
-Niesa
-Cara (belated)
-Phyllis
Currently listening to blink182..

2009-06-05T19:11:00.005+08:00

1: Are you single- Yes.
2: Are you happy- Bored.
3: Are you bored- Yes.
4: Are you fair- *looks at skin* Used to be...
5: Are you Italian- No.
6: Are you intelligent- Hope so..
7: Are you honest- Yes. Try me?
8: Are you nice- Yes, unless you are way too unreasonable.
9: Are you Irish- How did you know? Yes, I am! :D Really..
10: Are you Asian- Also Asianblood. LOL.

~TEN FACTS~
1: Full Name- Clare Serene Foster(WenShan)
2: Nicenames- sren
3: Birth Place- Singapore.
4: Hair Colour- Zz, now is black,red and brown. Last time green and pink. LOLOL, :D
5: Natural hair- Wavy.
6: Eye colour- Dark brown.
7: Birthday- 19th Feb
8: Mood- Unsure.
9. Favourite colour- Red.
10: One favourite place you'd like to visit- Israel. LOL,

~Ten QUESTIONS~
Q1 disappeared! o.o
2:Do you believe in love at the first sight- Don't know.
3:Do you currently have a crush- Maybe. (:
4:Have you ever been hurt emotionally-Yes.
5:Have you ever broken someone heart- Yes.
6:Have you ever had your heart broken- Yes.
7:Have you ever liked someone but never tell them- Yes. :(
8:Are you afraid of commitment- Nope.
9.Who was the last person you hugged- Can't remember.
10:Who was the last person you said i love you to- Can't remember.

~TEN THIS OR THAT~
1:Love or lust- Love.
2:Hard liquor or beer- Beer.
3:Cats or dogs- Cat
4. A few best friends or any regular friend- A few best friends.
5:Creamy or Crunchy- Crunchy.
6:Pencil or Pen-Pen.
7:Wild night out or romantic night in- Wild night.
8:Money or Happiness- Money. i have money, i happy. HAHA!
9.Day or night- Night.
10. IM or phone- Phone.

~TEN HAVE YOU EVER~
1. Been caught sneaking out- I don't get caught..
2. Seen a polar bear- Yes.
3. Done something you regret- Yeah.
4. Bungee jumped- Nope.
5.Eaten food that fell on the floor- Yes.
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker- Don't know what that is..
7.Ever been caught naked- Nope.
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back- Nahhh.
9. Cried because you lost your pet- I don't lose things like that. :D
10. Wanted to disappear into the crowd- Yep.

~TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER~
1. Smile or eyes- Smiley
2. Light or dark hair- Dark.
3. Hugs or kisses- Hugs.
4. Shorter or taller- Taller.
5. Intelligence or attraction- Both
6. Topman or Zara- Topman..
7. Funny or serious- Both should be at right time aye.
8. Older or younger- Same age or older. Hahaaa.
9. Outgoing or quiet- Outgoing.
10. Sweet or bad- Badddd! (:

~TEN HAVE YOU'S~

1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd- Yeah.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour- Uhh, 8hours!
3. Ever tried walking on your hands- Yes.
4. Ever been to a rock concert- Yes.
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team- Never have, never will..
6. Ever been on a dance team- Yes
7. Ever been on a sports team- Yes.
8.Ever been in a drama play/production- Nopes.
9. Ever own a BMW, Mercedes Benz or Bently- Ooh, I wish?
10. Ever been on a rap video?-Hehe, no.

~TEN LASTS~
1. Last phone call you made- Call back prankcaller.
2. Last person you hugged- Can't remember.
3. Last person you hung out with- Jia Min & Savonne
4. Last time you worked- I'mma student. It's not considered work if no ka-ching. :D
5. Last person you talked to- Prankcaller.
6. Last person you IM- Felicia.
7. Last person you texted- Savonne, I think?
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with- Ashes, Jia and Von.
9.Last person/thing you missed- Not telling you. Nyehhh.
10. Last website you visited- Quizilla! (:
.....................
1)Who tag you to do this quiz?- Nobody. But they said anyone can do! :-D
2)Will you fall in love with a boy/girl that is older than you?- Yeah
3)How long do you intend to spend your life with your lover?- Forever, but what if your lover doesn't marry you in the end? :/ hmm,
4)What would you do to a million dollars?- Build a new zoo or mental hospital together with my friends!
5)Will you fall in love with your best friend?- Haha. They're all girls. I won't fall for them. But of course I love them.
6)Which is more best loving someone or being loved?- Loving someone. But it has to work both ways or nothing right?
7)What do you like the most?- That tomorrow a different day!(:
8)If the person you like is already attached,what would you do?- Check out if the girl treats him right, if not I would pray he'll be mineee! (:
9)Is there anything that makes you really happy?- Seeing people smile & laugh
10)What make you sad?- When you leave without a word..
11)How would you see yourself in 10 years time?- Happily ever after and doing what I love.
12)Who is currently most important to you now?- Those I'm missing..
13)Do you like your name?- loving it.
14)What do you prefer being single &rich or married& poor?- Neither of the above. I'll be married and rich! Lallala~
15)What is your favourite colour?- Red &&&& black yo.
16)If you are attached and one boy likes you what would you do?- Not hurt him but let him slowly know and that he'll find his one soon. Unless I like also, I ask him wait til I break up uh.
Hahahaha x))
17)How would you like a guy to propose to you?- Any-way. 'Cos it takes a lot to do that.. as long not corny. Blehhh,
18)What do you want to tell someone you like?- "I love you. LOL."
19)If there is a choice between your lover & fwens which one would you choose?- My lover should be my friend too riiight (: Heh
20)What do you do when your boyfriend cheated on you?- Be sad, see what it's worth whether it's time to move on. Otherwise, will just wait.
choose 5 people to do this quiz:
-Savonne
-Jia Min
-Niesa
-Tiffany
-Qi Yun
-Anyone who is lovesick

2009-06-03T20:41:00.029+08:00

Oink?

This is her trademark pose. :D Stylo?

They say I open my eyes too big, so like this can? :P

LOLOL, hey-o. Been like update-delete update-delete three times in a row.
Now decided to do a proper holiday post. Heheh.
Cannot negative.
On sunday met with Fang Ying for third(: , signed up for serving but hope can.
Long time never see her. :(
Then next day, tried to be smart and hurt a bone. Eh Eh (nothing else I can say)! x))
Hm, then joined Savonne, Amelia, Jun Da, Samuel, Phyllis & the rest of the co. at downtown.
Today walked around amkhub with Jia Min & Savonne.
Firstly, I want you to remember :
Jia Min didn't* change at the staircase :D
Jia Min didn't* ask the motorcyclist for a free ride :D
Jia Min didn't* look drunk! :D
....okay? (:
Put extensions. For them, brown and red.
Put black and red for myself. Haah. Ironed straight too.
Thanks for cheering me up yall.
Called that sec3 woman who wanna fight. What thing. Say I act nicenice somemore. This one real szb, where got act?! Hahaha. :}
Had dinner with them. Camwhore-d. Walk around.
Said our goodbyes. Hahaa.
Train-ed, walked home by the b-park route.
Star-gazed. Praise God, I'm guided home by one bright star, Jesus! (:
Won't call the time I've spent wasted, cos I've enjoyed it. Even though haven't done everything I'm supposed to do, it's okay. From today will focus, clear it all and have more fun. Mean it.
Plans, worries, cares, desires and mistakes(forgiven) you're cast up to Jesus now, they're commited to be prospered.

2009-05-28T19:03:00.027+08:00

28/05/09 post-
Wassup yo. Ok,cannot remember anything about school yesterday besides efl being for not unusually boring and my pencil box being confiscated by gzilla, cos people like to unzip it and play.
Big thank you to the people who help me get it back. Muacks. Hahaaah.
Pon-ed training..
Along the way to suntec some uncomfortable things happened. :s
Never wearing nametag after school again.
Queued for tickets @ 5. RAWR, friends play me out after two hours. Haaaah.
But Jesus forever faithful, though came late into audi and someone occupy the numbered seat I got. Sat next to Steffy and her friend! Amazing.
Catch the annointing and transform it into something we can recieve from.
Service rocked uhs.
Admit quite sleepy.
Then hmm, got elections today.
Science zzzz,
Reccess time that gundu Jia Hao search my bag to find idk what, like I'd keep in there laaa. nyeheheh. Look through everything, handphone, exam papers. Like what thing.

Like looking for lipstick like that.

Whacked his face. Then after that he do something stupid again until everyone started whacking his face, but instead I fell backwards. omggg, lol!
After school, was parents-teacher meeting. :l
Stayed back with the rest to do class banner. Hahaa.
Then wrecked the place with the paint, then decided to do handprints.
So did mine red. It's wallpaint yknow. Kaith, Si Xian and me took superlong time to wash off until got that cleaning thing(forgot name). So freaky.
Looked like murderer with two red hands.
Went home at 5.50 like that, didn't wanna get locked out again...
Believe 'n' become

Niesaaa after spraying yellow on her hair. Hope it comes off soon.

Yellow + black = green!
Partner in crime for murdering people- Si Xian :P
This is just so cool.

Blow my heartzxz up! :}

29/05/09 post-
Today lots of nonsense. Didn't have good time.
Art teacher never come all of us wait outside the locked room.
Nobody came.
Did some more nonsense.
After school, went Jia Min's house with co. then go sports carnival. Here's some photos.
Yay, they've won gold!!!!
Kaith, Brenda, Qi Yun, Cai Ting
YCK stadium
BL @ Jia Min's house
Mascot. Hahaa.
Sandraaaaaaaaaaa!

Decided to pierce tomorrow. Won't fill in any details in-between.
Met Elaine Choa on the way home and cheered up.

2009-05-26T16:19:00.009+08:00

An "attack of the carebearzxz " took place yesterday, & the day before.

Here to update for Tiffany's sake. Hahaa.
Sunday at third Danielle and I kept shouting awesome. :D Hoho.
Been like long time never talk to Cheryl.
Not satisfied enough with results, had our reportbooks back today. Hey. :(
Maybe one day I'll just wake up with that 'desire' to study. Yes,that better be soon.
Haziq, Imran and Zul bully me while crossing the road to school, in the morning. Waa, D:
Science was cool today. MT period watched some cheena movie.
Hahaa, surprisingly nice. Reccess , accompanied Amirahh buy drink went back to class,on the way saw him.(:
I swear I was never angry with you..
Back at class, chat with Amelia & co. Borrowed Amirul's ipod. The headphone dang nice,tell you.
Godzillaho's lesson must repeat after her until so noisy. :D No,if you're wondering..we still haven't finished going through the paper thanks to that. Amelia, Emeldon, Alwyn and me laughing like crazy making fun of the duster that spoil, wondering where it keep disappearing to. Then realised she got pocket! OH!
Didn't see it at first, then laugh until talk perved like that. Omg. Not all is by me ah ok.
Then cher borrow Irfan's phone video tape the monkeys behaviour and wanna show it to the parents get them to identify us, flash the camera phone on everyone, then all use paper cover the face.
Then somebody jump up to the video shout ,"Ma, can you see me?"
Hahaahahh. So childish eh but so funny and cute.
"you better not shout you better not cry telling you why, lzb is coming to class !"
CE, were the last group to do presentation. It went well. :D
First topic was *** and BO. Second was 3rs.
Not entirely happy. What's going on? :( nobody fight right?

Let go of you this month, feeling finally free!
There's nobody holding me back anymore, who I can hurt or get hurt by. No expectation to live up to.
Because of what you've done, it gives everyone else around no reason to dare accuse me of anything.
In that way, yeaaah I love you! yay?
LOL, okay I go study now.

*Gonna double-pierce top part of my ears on thursday or friday!
*UH, by the waaaay uh!!!!! Listen to all the songs on my playlist!!
*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO QI YUN!!!! LOVEYOU!

2009-05-21T19:43:00.015+08:00

Just because you look at me buay song does not mean I should not be happy. LOLOL.
So bless you child[ren] ,blow your nose and learn how to smile. Holding no grudges against you to stop my recieving. LOLOL,
Shine your lights, darkness has been overcomed! Pursue, we'll recover all.AMENAMEN! :D
Walk out what you are, knowing what you are under sets you free! :D
Greater than this world that says that I'm not worth much today
It's your blood that's washed my sins away
ILOVEYOU, JESUS!! & all you are to me! Gonna see beyond the natural, use all you've given in every situation, and experience your love over again fresh.
& not make light of your grace, in your everlasting flow of cleansing(in forgiveness). There is therefore now no condemnation! :D
Yeah, Jesus(!) ,in you there's a spirit of boldness and gentleness in the face of spiritual warfare!

At school highlights of this week was fencing during post-exams.
Zz, today went through papers. Let's just say results is borderline, something everyone agree not to discuss. Hahaa. Things won't be the same anymore, next term.
Will try studying more in holidays at least 40% of the time? Bored with borderlines.
Only knew bout some assignment way too last minute, so there goes the pull-you-up marks. Ah.
Yesterday: Did re-test with some people. They copy from me, copy all my wrong answers. Didn't know what to fill in some. So created own names for the elements. LOLOLOL,
they copied that too. EVERYTHING.
Hanged in class with the favourite people, Jia Min, Savonne, Niesaaa, Haziq and Ashes.
Congrats Jia Min for your newborn, named ~~Jayne~~ Jayve. One day old.
Raise her up to be smart like Savonne and Ashwini, and not blurrr like meee!
Cute or what eh?

Today sing national anthem until gonna cry laughing. All Yao Cong and Joseph's fault uh..all their fault! Maths lesson was like so what the bleah okay.
"Let's break the record and do four questions correction for one hour!"said Si Xian. Really it worked, due to some reason[s]. Class 1/7`09 broke the record! Now, can we please get class tees? Cooperate can?(:
After school, waited at AVA for geography results. Zz,
It was combined with 1/6 :D :D
Mr Teacher announced, "I'm going to flash on the screen!" Then Niesaaa stand up and scream laughing,
Cher was like "for the results..." Then Ashwini, Jia Min, Trisha, Hui Mei, Savonne and me laughing like szb at him. We all sat like guai kias for the overall results, while the rest went off. Passed geog(:

Oh, happy one month to Niesaaa and her baby! Hahah (:
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Pontianak Serene. :D

Wish I could be somebody else
Wish I could see you in myself
Wish there was something inside me to keep you beside me,
Say what you really feel
You know I need something that's real
Wish there was something inside me to keep you beside me- The keeper,yellowcard

Hmm, that's how I feel whenever anyone leaves

2009-05-17T21:20:00.006+08:00

LOL. Last night's match was dang dreadful uh. Was over-bored so watched soccer. Haah.
Never remembered seeing players fall down that many times before. Nevertheless,man utd still champs. Suckycheats.
Next game til midnight, stayed up. Newcastle Utd let me down. =( Zz,that's the part I'm from and grew up in.
And they're out of the league. Referee was wth. Period.

Went out for the first time in Godknows how many days. Hahaa.
Bought contact lenses and yellowcard cd at orchard, went for fourth service afterward.
Felt there was a very powerful presence in worship.
Yeah, Jesus. Your love has rescued me from the grave.
Two close encounters in this lifetime.
Being born and alive itself's a real miracle(you will never guess). Thank you for redeeming it as a right under your covenant and experience your unending mercies.
Thank you salvation is dependent on the crimson. It's gonna be alright!
Don't wanna walk out the same person ever again, whenever I behold your face,Jesus,your finished work and judgement. Preaching was about how no God does miracles like our God! Never let go until you see miracles manifestation.
One word: radiating! Some of the sharing was very funny and touching uh. Already excited about midweek.
Can't wait to see my besties tomorrow at school and for training to start. Yeah,hmm..? HMM,

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

2009-05-15T12:55:00.018+08:00

Can give no explanation to why changed url again.

Irfan's tiny snake. (Real! Observe the way it curls up. Worms can't do that....)
2 ants mating inside the container and a spider spinning a web

Don't we all feel this way?

Niesaaaa's the best! :D

Enough pictures. This really sucks.
Missed four exam papers because was having high fever of 39.5degrees celcius ,ear infection,sorethroat and headache.
Did bloodtest again on Tuesday night at government docts and results, that had to wait one and a half hours to get, show positive. Doctor says is influenza A.
Right. Better than h1n1 reaching singapore yet.
There's a cure for IA but TTS disallows fever patients to take it. Hmm,
Wasted again. Mug over the weekend for the papers and now cannot take. Grr,
Using ca1 marks for it instead. No re-tests.
Like what sia always tio scolding from chers for talking in class.
Dad throw some of my clothes away.
That's all.

(Tagged by Savonne)
1. Real Name : Clare Serene Foster
2.Nickname(s) : Srenwscf
3.Age : 13
4.Email : clareserene_love@hotmail.com/ c14r3serene_ventsation@hotmail.com
5.Hand phone : 6789998212/ 999/ 991/ 65521111 (Hahaaaa!)
6.Spec or contact lens : Both
7.Horoscope : In between aquarius and pisces
8.Male or Female : Female
9.Tv or Games : Games
10.Primary School : St Anthony's Canossian
11.Secondary School : Anderson Sec
12.Poly or Jc : Hope for poly
13.University? : Hope so too
14.Hair colour : Brownish
15.Long or short hair: Medium(:
16.Loud or Quiet : I'm quiet but laugh very loud
17.Sweats or Jeans : Jeans
18.Phone or camera : phone with camera? :D
19.Health Freak : Eh...nooo.
20.Drink or smoke : Tried out both. Beer can knock out after 2hours. As for smoking, inhale too fast can cough non-stop.
21.Have a crush on someone? : Ohyeah
22.Eat or drink? : Drink
23.Piercing(s): 5 in total on the ears but the top one closed up already
24.Tattoos: No thank you.
25.Social or anti-social : Anti-social
26.First Relationship : -nil-
27.First bestfriend : Eva
48.Wealthy or happiness : Happiness:D
49.Want to get married? : Erm.. Only nuns don't want.
50.Want kids ? : Er
51.Careers in mind : Nearly had a contract for it
52.Fight before ? : Uh-huh.
53.Most regret of : Nothing.
54.Talented in : Have talents so hidden that don't know what they are!
55.Weak in? : Almost everything..
56.Romantic or spontaneous? : Can be both if I'm bothered-.-
57.Lips or eye? : Both
58.Nice stomach or nice arms? : Arms. I swing them round to show off the fats. LOL.
59.Shorter or Taller? : Average
60.Protective or Caring : No idea.
61.Hook-up or Relationships : relationships
62.Troublemaker or hesistant : Can also be both:D
63.Lost glasses or contacts : Not yet..
64.Ran away frm home : Once for refuge.
65.Held a gun/knife for self defense : Nope.
66.Killed somebody : Nope.
67.Broken someone's heart : Don't know
68.Been arrested : Nope.
69.Cried when someone died : Yes :-(
70.Missed someone alot alot : Yep.
71.Believe in Yourself : Most of the time.
72.Believe in Miracles : Yes yes&& yess
73.Love at first sight : Not so sure.
74.Heaven or Hell : Heaven
75.Santa claus : Nope :/
76.Cartoon or anime : Cartoon! (:
77.Tooth Fairy : Hahaa. This quiz so cute! That one maybe.
78.Kiss in the first date : Uhhh, think not. (kiss thru the phone la. Jk. LOLOL)
79.Afraid of death : Nahh.
80.Handsome or cute : Cute.
81.Pretty or cute : Cute.
82.Reality or dream : Reality.
83.Is there a person you want to be with now ? : No. Because I don't wanna spread germs to anybody. :/
84.Are you seriously happy with what you're in life now? : Altogether, yes. Easily satisfied(:
85.Do you believe in fate? : Yes.
86.Do you believe in everlasting love? : Yep. Jesus' love. (:
87.Do you believe in god ? : Uh-huhh
88.How often do you lie? : Should I count? :/
89.Do you respect elders? : If they respect me, I'll respect them back. Haah.
90.Are you a good kid? : That's yet to be decided.. But kinda.
91.Do you like your family? : Yes.
92.Do you like your friends? : Hardcore!
93.Are you greedy ? : Nope.
94.What do you want now? : Somebody's forgiveness...
95.What will you wish for? : That I can fly..
96.A truth to first person ? : Eh.
97.A truth to second person? : Eh.
98.A truth to third person? : Eh.
99.Do you even trust yourself? : No.
100.post as 100th truth tag 10 person

2009-05-08T20:39:00.010+08:00

Attitude problem? Bloodyhell. Who don't have.
I know who my true friends are now. ILOVETHEMCRAZY, and will not let you bully any of them!!
You started it and get away. So unfair! Didn't know x-press so free to aggrevate us.
Say settle gangfight. Look down on people. Funny to deny exactly what you mean,isn't it?
But despite it, people did stick by us! Thankyou 1/8,2/7,3/8 & ...! :D
I LOVE A-ES
I LOVE JM
I LOVE S
I LOVE A
I LOVE N
I LOVE T
in future we will better than any of them! amen! :D

3 down 4 to go! Papers I mean, not people.
Going well.

inside-out, upsidedown and sideways, you're on!
*take note: Will be changing url anytime soon (no relink page) after myes.
Remember(if can) it's www.fragile-awakenings.bs.com :)

2009-05-06T16:47:00.013+08:00

Like a Saturday night I'll be gone

before you knew that I was there

So you wrote it down I'm supposed to care

Even though it's never there

Sorry if I'm not prepared

Is it hard to see the things you substitute

For me and all my thoughts of you

It's eating me alive to leave you

Maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong

But so is your blank stare in lieu of this song

Maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong

Don't wanna be, don't wanna be wrong

You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song

Don't wanna be, don't wanna be wrong

You're leaving me, you're leaving me

in lieu of this, lieu of this song- Rough Draft,by Yellowcard

Lingering along the road of.. ohman I don't know!

Back right to where I started from(maybe around this time last year). Stagnant.

For nearly a week I've been walking around expressionless and unresponsive like a emofied zombie. (Well, it hasn't exactly been a good week for all of us for some particular reason[s].)

No more last shots. It ends here.

That also means end of post. Back to revising.

Cripes....

2009-05-06T16:30:00.000+08:00

:"(

2009-05-02T19:33:00.008+08:00

It did cross my mind but never thought it would be real.

Relive your worst nightmare over again..

To be honest(something rare here :/), had just gotten to used to that treatment now can't get out of it. It's not what I really want. Very awkward. Feeling so used up.

Whenever you tell me to shutup, I never ever want to open my mouth again. Badly hurts.

Can't shake it off, can't let it out.

It gets stuck inside and trapped. Trapped, that's the word.

Last person I wanna talk to is an adult. Thinking it over, haven't really trusted anyone for a very long time. It's safer. It's protected. In some way or another.

Don't start playing leader with me.

Your lonely Apathy;

.....................................................................................................................................................

Just recovered from sinus flu. Dilemma-d whether to go or not to go for dare today.

Glad I did.

Kept tearing and crying it out.

There's still one person who cares. There's still one person who's got control of it all.

And it's Jesus.

Who fought for the higher ground for me.

Who will never think of condemning me as I deserved to be.

The only one who can see me getting one step higher when I fall ,for He stooped down to pick me up and it just keeps getting better.

There's just so much I'm holding inside.

For once, let go of it loose during today's praise&worship.

Really awesome to be assured I can be in that realm. Supernaturally, not just a face in the crowd. But zero-ed in to.

*Dear readers(if any): I'm so sorry if this update was too personal, that there was no mention of names or anything. But there it is.

So crushed x]]

2009-04-26T19:27:00.011+08:00

Tagged by Savonne Sim Shimin & Boon Jia Min to do this. It's a small world. *shrug*
WHICH IS BETTER/MORE IMPORTANT?
Q:Love or Trust?
A:Trust. Hmm,bit of both in it.
Q:Brains or Beauty?
A:Brains lah. Use yo blain. Use yo blain. :D
QRelationship or Sex?
A:Neither. I like crushhh.
Q:Family or Friends
A:Both.
Q:iPod or Cell Phone?
A:Can't live without both.
Q:Computer/TV?
A:Computer.
Q:Food or Drink?
A:Drink, because no oil inside.
Q:Coke or Pepsi?
A:Pepsi.
Q:Chocolate or Vanilla?
A:Vanilla
Q:Double-Sided Tape or One-Sided Tape?
A:Double-Sided Tape. Stickysticky!
I THINK THAT I..
[ ] Am Pretty
[ ] Am Smart
[X] Am Nice
[ ] Am a Bad Influence
[ ] Am a Good Influence
[ ] Am More Attractive Than Most of My Friends
[ ] Am Popular
[X] Am Spoiled
[ ] Have a Good Fashion Sense
[X] Am Not Good Enough..
[X] Have Better Things to do Than This Quiz
[ ] Am Considered ‘Goodlooking’ by the Opposite Sex
[ ] Curse too Much
[X] Have too Much Time on my Hands
[X] Am Overweight
[ ] Am too Skinny
RANDOM.
Q: Someone you know drops $10, but keeps walking. What would you do?
A: I'd tap the person on the shoulder and say, "You still want it?" LOL.
Q: What’s your dream job?
A: Deejay.
Q: What’s your favorite drink?
A: No faves, anything with choc,coffee or carbonated will do.
Q: What’s your favorite movie & why?
A: Passion of Christ, it's a hope to keep on living.
Q: Who’s your BEST friend?
A: Ashwini, Amirah, Savonne, Niesa, Jia Min , Tiffany, Shikin and alot more.
Q: If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
A: Resene Arcel Fotres(you can unscramble the letters to become my name yknows!)
Q: Who, of all the people you know, do you wish that you were better friends with?
A: People who've misunderstood me, I guess?
Q: What’s the one thing that you wish you could change about yourself?
A: Right now if possible it would be to be more responsible.
Q: What’s your favorite commercial?
A: All the funny ones!
Q: What color do you wish your eyes were?
A: Oooh, green! But it wouldn't go with the rest of the features.
Q: What’s your favorite book?
A: Second glance, change of heart, my sister's keeper and the bible.
Q: If you had a son, what would you name him?
A: Err, dunnoe.
Q: If you had a daughter, what would you name her?
A: Also dunnoe.
Q: Who’s your favorite relative, and why?
A: Judith my sweetest cousin
Q: What’s your favorite holiday & why?
A: Every school holiday is the best.
Q: Can you name 5 different Pokemons?
A: Only know Pikachu. Hehh,
Q: Do you know anyone that CAN name 5 different Pokemons?
A: Will get back to you tomorrow...
Q: What’s one thing that you do that your parents wouldn't approve of?
A: Piercing without their permission.
HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW YOUR BEST FRIEND(S)?- Name 10 of your closest friends
1.Jiamin
2.Ashwini
3.Niesa
4.Amirah
5.Savonne
6.Shikin
7.Christianne
8.Tiffany
9.Cheryl Teow
10.Jochebel
Favorite Color?- Black and red
Favorite Food?- None
Favorite Drink?-Refer to the above
Favorite Song?- Ones favourited on youtube
Favorite Saying?- "You never know" "Dog can bark at the moon but the moon still shines"
"Reject me yo own loss"
Favorite School Subject?-Drama and Chem.
Favorite Candy?- Gum.
Favorite Type of Soda?-Pepsi.
Favorite TV Show?- Omg,teletubies and mr bean.
Now, tagged 5 people to do this quiz. 1)Whoever would like to do this quiz please feel free to do this quiz! (:

Make a joyful sound! Enjoyed yesterday's praise&worship in service. Damn,can bite myself for being so lazy. Kwangkwangkwang!
Casting every care and worry to the Lord right now. Specially exam period coming up.
After service ate sushi with mummy. Hahaa. :D
Today was super randommm I tell you!! Joined Amirah,Ashwini,Jia Min,Niesaaa,Savonne and Trisha for recess, instead of emoing in the classroom with Rong Jie, Emeldon and some others. LOLOL. Partly, because my senior had to pass me back my schoolbadge.
So we all scream across the canteen to Jared that his baby over here with us.
Okay lah since the canteen nearly empty. Hahaaa. Then played the song dangerous and kiss me thru da phone, congrats to all the friends of mine who have got attached, that last special week aye. gongxifacai. Last loooong! Oh,lots of other random stuffs happened too during recess. o-O
Afterschool, Kenneth went all the way home with only one shoe. Zomg.
Cos somebody who stole it, please return it.
Imran,Trishaaa and Haziq came to join us before the others did their lit project at the computer lab. They all sit at the teachers desk rapping to idk what song.
News on Dolph's stuperman. Zzz. to the rescue.
Hanged out at the playground with our bubbleteas and pearls. Then took off!
let everything within me Lord bless yo name!:D

Kiss Me Through The Phone ( - Soulja Boy
sometimes do you really think people want you for who you are?
and not what you are, for convinience sake and not to go out of their comfort zone. all bout what you can do or even how far you can go..
observe, and think bout it! See? As usual I answer my own question.

2009-04-22T21:32:00.014+08:00

Don't need to say a word about it or anything else. Samuel's offer of ~~gangster~~ training just too ..well,unaffordable.

"We all hurt the same way as you do
We all bleed the same way as you do
Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on, it gets better than you know." --Hold on, good charlotte

Woken up in the middle of your dreams by your own crying ,at night.
..............................................................................
Only thing that still makes me laugh >>(on the way to d&t room:)
Me: Oi Joseph! Your shoelaces untied
Joseph: Yup. You wanna tie for me?
Me: No. Eh Frankie! Help Joseph tie his shoe
Joseph: Frankie is my servant, you're my dog. Dog must tie shoe.
Me&Brenda: Dog got no hands
Joseph: Use mouth tie
Me: Only one mouth what.
Joseph: Then use two mouth lah. *walk away faster with untied laces*

Gawdddd, that's something I wouldn't want to see happen between two dogs and their master.

fuuuuuuuuuuckoffffffffffffffffffffffff

2009-04-20T17:45:00.021+08:00

Blue skies.
"Come, break her down. Bury her. Bury her."
Vons and I

Did this myself. :P

Well, like I promised her. I'm here once again to blog about Dolphin's stuperman.
It has been known last week that her stuperman had been caught running in the canteen with a bucket on his head, yelling ,"It's stuck! It's stuck!!" How cute was that? Very. According to Dolphs. Sad to say, I was not present at this occasion.
As we all are internet stalkers(and some should know to well), I have added stuperman on facebook. Upon which, if the request is accepted. Dolphs will proceed to add.
Better get this in ink, no way am I making a fool of myself to some random add. Hurhurhur
It's the 200TH post! wootwoots
Here come the photos from what's called sabo pictures. Ones you'll hate me for.

It was a typical day@anderson. Put in a better mood after seeing shb, who's so pretty to me, at the bus stop. Technically a senior I don't see much.
Lits was a bore, skin peeled off in assembly. Practically molting.
Another teacher wanted to send me & gang out of class. Only said two words.
She & her biased ass.
Mrs Hui kept smiling while explaining chems. That's scary. Worse when she mentioned MYE.
*shudder*

Lately, there has been some feedback about my nerdy aura. Will prove you wrong. Note the difference in our nametags tomorrow.

For Tiffany Hearted:
Miss you babes,

2009-04-19T15:12:00.009+08:00

"Your love's the anthem I raise
Let everything within me Lord
Lift up your praise forevermore
Yours is the word that heals" -New Creation Church, [forgot title]

Sometimes you get insecure, clumsy and forgetful. They call it part of growing up.
It just goes to show I have a long way to go. Heeh. But fact still remains to our Saviour king,
we are forever righteous. Out for dare yesterday, sat with Cara, some dg people , Bekah and her friend. Praise&worship was awesomes! So was sermon, took down two pages[last week was four].
Train-ed down to hub. Met the 2women and 1man in black. Nobody told me there was a dresscode for the day,that was black. Hahh,
We went to watch 17again late. Good movie, as in it makes you think. Really think.
Owe some people money for it. Uh-oh.
Today went for first service alone, as usual. Think worship was extended. How cool.
Afterwards, met Jochebel, Rachiiiie and Danielle at skygarden to study.
They were super kind to lend me their notes from last year. Thanks sisters.
Sunburns will get darker when exposed to sunlight, therefore cant stay there too long.
What am I saying? It's not even darker, just red. Not looking forward to peeling it off.
Met Cheryl-ryl-ryl at macs.
Played table hockey so violently at arcade ,she won. Ahh, revenge!
Saw schoolmate there too. Then they queued for third.
May is coming up soon. Uh-oh-oh Uh-uh-oh-oh3.

without you life is too incomplete
what the bleah serene. focus. you should be studying.

P.S: Sunburnts are getting painful-er. Everybody's gonna laugh at me tomorrow. :-(
Ok, gonna stick my head and legs in the freezer for the next two hours....

2009-04-17T19:14:00.005+08:00

Today was halfday, felt gooddd slacking. Started off well after seeing my boyf waiting for me at the gate. (No luh. Just kidding. Don't have one. But I did see somebody waiting at the gate, which is ,errrr, unusual. Hehe )..
Aww, I missed everybody soso much! Especially you you and you!
Didn't get a chance to see Ash today. She gotta take care of her sick bro. Sadz.
Sit with Amirul bit sianz with an occasional paper areoplane. Ms Thor was out for a match so there was a free period! Irfan and Amirul use my pencilcase for skipping rope.
School ended. No training. We all(girlfs) actually planned to go Fareast plaza to put extensions. Walked to the mrt singing How do you sleep by Jesse Mccartney,while the guys played their "your zip is down" joke with each other on the way. =-=
Home-d, took extra clothes and went to meet Savonne, Jia Min, Imran and Haziq at macs.
Then Savonne and I went to buy from MOS burger, which is not halal. Haziq thinks the tissue they have there are not halal as well. Very funny. They tortured me to laugh like the last time, but can say not as sucessful because no retarded wrestling video game to watch.
They sent me lots of nice songs today.
Train-ed to harbourfront. Vivo-ed at candyempire.
Got to siloso beach at sentosa, mostly played in the water. Played beach soccer and bit volleyball. Made some RIPs in the sand. Gah, I've got sunburnt patches everywhere!! Gah.
Ghost stories and lame jokes were told too.
Spillage has taken over my handphone and it has blacked out and spoiled, please don't call/sms yet. I'll contact you soon.
Upload picts before the spillage soon, since still got the memory card.
Jesus grace was enough to get me back home with a shortage of 25cents. Haha.

"As I look into the sky above
Wonder how my life has changed
Wonder how Your love, it came to me
As I look into the sky above All my fears, so far away
All I hear is heaven calling me
So I look to You So I look to You
No one else will do No one else will do "--look to you,hillsong united

truly more than blessed, not feeling any symptoms of mycroplasma anymore. yay.

2009-04-16T15:48:00.003+08:00

Hello, relinks uh!
Have been absent again some time after having fever for nearly a week, did a blood test at hospital to make sure it wasn't dengue. And it wasn't. But results for the bloodtest were still negative.. Having micro plasma. It's infectious. (Still, have been studying at home okay. Hehe)
It hasn't fully clear yet. Makes me feel weak and like fainting when tired. Pfft,sounds stupid.
But it does.
I badly miss my classmates,the clique ,in particular.

if you must know

mighty to save

2009-04-11T20:53:00.000+08:00

Please don't hurt me. :/
Don't know anymore. You always take everyone away from me or tell me to go away.
Found it hard to forget the times you twisted my arm.
But nobody had a word to say bout that.
I'm tired of saying I'm okay. I'm tired of building fences.
The only defence there used to be was just roughing around.
No way possible to fit in.
Then there is also them. They had been there from the start doing all possible to humiliate.
Sometimes I don't know why I come...
But....please just don't hurt me. Please?

HurrahHurrah! Tomorrow is easter!
Hmm, most of you people should know easter is the day Jesus rose again after dying on the cross to save you and I. :D
Oh, and He was not murdered...He layed down His life
His precious blood paid the price for more than eternal life,but a life in abundance!
A life with an intimate relationship with a Saviour who loves you deeply.
No more 'if only's! No more guilt or condemnation!
With Him, there is a future that has been decided! Called blessed.
Who wouldn't want to place every lack and concern in the hands of a God like that?
Thank you Jesus for every beating that was struck, for every piercing that was nailed.
That we may be made completely whole today. :D
Also for the crown of thorns they placed on your head. The prick of it can make you insane.
But Praise Jesus he bore it for the soundness of mind to be ours!
Another thing is Jesus heart was raptured(burst), He shed lots of blood so when the heart has no blood left to pump it will pump water right? So that's why it burst. So He died of a brokenheart.
Yup, that is why ours will never be broken. Ackheeem. Don't playplay :D
While watching the passion of christ, noticed it was 30pieces of silver used for the betrayal.
Never really thought much bout it til keep seeing it tossed twiced by Judas and the pharisees.
Remembered silver represents redemption. So actually He was betrayed for our redemption. wow.

Isaiah53:5 -But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement for our peace was upon him;
and with his stripes we are healed.

Happaye easter! Enjoy collecting your easter eggs and bunnies :B

let the stumbled seek,
to see your face
and know it's been you all along

To be continued,editted

2009-04-06T22:13:00.000+08:00

Somebody turned into a chicken

How decieving fbts are. JiaMinSavonneSerene
JiaMinImran & retardserene

After first service, train-ed to dhobyghaut one stop to meet Savonne.
We met late. The train door closed on me. Nearly jammed my arm. LOL,
Savonne left in the train alone. She got off the next stop to meet.
Had some other miscommunication problems so at the next stop,when my train reached somerset is that I got off,and she got back on. Omg,hahahahaha.
Met her & Imran + A2s at amkhub, then bus-ed and walked to the Boon's house. Haha :-D It's Jia Min lah.
We asked Imran where she stays at,then he point to his nose O_o"
Saw lots of chickens running on the grass on the way there. Once reached the entrance of her house there, saw Jeremy. Started laughing.
So anyways, went to Jia Min's house to do history project.
Looked round for inspiration. But so far have only found these...
1. Waterproof handphone camera/speakers
2. Dustbin that lights up when you open it to see for rubbish
3. Shoes that can stick on the wall
Ackheem. Blame that genius lor.
Then went to the pool and splash for fun, but splash until soaked through.
So decided to push each other into the deep end. Funny sey.
Changed, bus-ed back to j8 for dinner. Met Niesa and Zul. Played arcade.
At macs started laughing like some maniac. Was watching the screen's video wrestling.
Then everybody laughed. Put me under pressure to see when I laugh next.
They will start counting, then will start laughing again like volcanic eruption. They say I'm blur :-( Aw,so sad.
AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH. Um, apologies for the noise. It was hard for us to get through eating.
Played at playground with them and left.
Today's inspiring monday very funny. Got pikapika! :P Hm, then chairman stand behind for national anthem sing so high pitched, with the "Lalalallala" at the end of every verse.
Make me laugh again. Class very empty today.
The rest of the day don't really wanna say. Think the system's so ridiculous.
At basketball Pregnant lady and I emo-ed at the balcony above the court, nice view though.
Seems like we're on the same boat, only the boat better go faster as long as not down the waterfall its kay. What's worse? Getting it slowly? OR. Getting it over and done with?
Debated for abits.
Walked about Toa Payoh(don't ask),witnessed gangfight. Bout 17guys in the gang.
One person running for their life,two others chasing behind him holding something(knife I assume?).. What days. What fun.
There's no reason to prove anything to anyone; is any being worth that?
No, as long as you know it.

"THAT'S THE WAY TO TIE A TIE! WE LIKE IT. UH-HUH. UH-HUH."

Please understand,I can't tell you what's wrong or what the problem is.

What frigging difference does it make.

Go ahead,cry and think bout how much you hate me!

tongue tied

2009-04-04T21:52:00.000+08:00

Hello. Suppose gonna update on a regular basis nowadays.
Dare was good today,then again God answered lots and lots of things on my mind through Pastor Daniel. :-D Got another revelation^^ Beloved comes from the word Be-loved. Uh-huhhh..
Yeah,if to keep trying yourself aint getting you nowhere God shall impart it into you.. because we know who does a better job when all else fails. So praying in spirit is another answer. Praise God manz! What the power of God can do! But two examples shared were seriously hilarious! (:
Cheerup, Racia! You're not alone! =)
Thanks for being so honest,value that.. not many people can just share openly.
Ah. Sotong like me doesn't know star factory is the arcade after so long -__- *goldfish stare*
Just say arcade next time.. Oh, don't ever play hockey table with Jeremy or Kenchan!
They make the disc fly everywhere off the table. Maybe they should change the game to be flying saucers and other UFOS instead. Grr, cheater! Use your hand to shoot it in.

Can't upload anything tonights. Photography is certainly improving.
It is my duty to upload every strange picture you all are caught in. It makes life exciting.
Because tongue got tied..freeze for the minute.

Ending the post off with best birthday wishes Brenda and Emeldon!

keep your head above the water

2009-04-02T21:41:00.000+08:00

Because God is good all the time,and all the time God is good!

Hmm, glad it's all over now.. Divorce has been called off now.
But it was less than three weeks before it was brought up again, and it sounded pretty serious this time. But God is good, He brought in another distraction so I think things'll only get better now. But the thing about this game of 'suspense' I'm starting to hate alot,when you're waiting for a reply you don't get it. Didn't even take a day to settle things. :-D
The day started out sucky. Kind of glad to have gotten top3 in the stream, felt paisey didn't know like how to stand to collect the cert. Really wanna top science,geography,history or maths. Ahh, maybe one of these days..all. Haha. Congrats to all the others too in all streams!
Lessons were sucky,chaotic..blahblah.. Improve the class situation pleeeease!
After school went to wildwildwet with Jia Min(sxpartner),Savonne(my babe!),Jun Da,Zhi Wei and Alvin. VERYVERYVERY fun sey. But the guys owe me ok. Time to be on loanshark duties. That's what you get for saying I look like a nerd in uniform. (:
Walking through downtown east brought back some fine fine memories of EJ4 camp. Hehe.
Oh, on the rides got alot of screaming power. Haha. Awesomeness.
Love the waves.
Although it was getting late,walked over to whitesands mall with Savonne and Zhi Wei.
Zhi Wei went off first. While the rest cabbed back.
There were even more memories there with SAC friends! Some things are to be missed. :-D
Walked around,talk,gossips,advise ,then we train-ed home!
Should really thank Teman for helping me yesterday here. So a big thank you to you,Teman Istemewa! Thanks for being there, love you loads.
OH, like the new blogsong?! Last heard it 5years ago.
It doesn't sound outdated, Michelle Branch has a really fresh voice.
Personally, can say better than Taylor Swift.
See? Not all 'ancient' things are bad bebehhhhhhh.

Equal standings

2009-03-30T22:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY IN ADVANCE TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE..
Not much of an improvement for an update.
Just slept for four hours with headache, now middle of project. :s
Can only do half okay. Somebody else have to do.
But did anybody take my lits file? Haven't seen it for 3weeks!
Think stolen already uh.. file check soon,included in some percentage for SA1.
So now have to either photocopy the deng notes or copy out handwritten. groans.
Geog commontest today, just that page that I didn't have time to look through came out.
For open-ended somemore.. :-( kissing my marks goodbye.
You'd do anything to see me get punished,wouldn't you? scarywoman D:

Jesus, I really don't know what to do..there's nothing can do bout it.
This verses from Psalms37 really spoke to me :
3-11
23-25
And I say amen to that! You are faithful and will make a way!
Today was a really strange day. lzb cher cough on the paper and give to me. l:
Yesterday's service was awesomes. We're in the new and living way!
We can use what the world is fighting to get, the key that is for all things.. which is Christ-righteousness. Blood is the only thing that can't be seen through by our Abba Father, and we're covered in righteous blood! Praise Jesus. I will stop emoing. Amen.
Got carebear before third. Carebear peeked out of the bag and looked around, and saw a playmate. Soooo cute,LOL. :P Carebear was so happy.
Isaac insisted before service that carebears and teletubbies are demonic, cos someone died in Po's costume. They went to pray over the bear. -______-
Never thought would live to see the day Rachie would be wearing heels. But hey,she did!

Said and done

2009-03-28T13:41:00.000+08:00

Woah, who's sexylegs were these? ;D
Case of breaking 'in' and not 'out' of class
LOL, what's going on here?

Lousy days.. Oh you heartless people!
Sometimes I wish I could disappear..
Wanna stop looking for trouble.
What do you do when you find out what's holding you back?
What happens when your only motivational power is vengeance?...

:D

[*continued#.//] Arms acheing like crazy after yesterday's bball.
Did more than 50pumpings but definitely less than 120. Ow ow owouch. And no, don't have muscles only sagging fats, that will hopefully disappear soon.
C div girls did beat Presby High with a kickass score of 22-11(well,I know our seniors helped us score above 50 before,but yeah I think it's still exercising grace with our score against the presbies,on our own). Lazy to scan things to upload.
Like said before, I don't know.. shouldn't know ....and don't think I wanna know anymore..
To know more, see more and hear more would get more emotionally tanggled up.
Avoiding that from now on, no more going with the flow before it's way too late. Yeap.
Especially if you know it can affect other people around.
I know what my focus is,where whatever purpose is gonna lead to. Not going to get distracted again and be left in pieces.
Back to elearns now, what a boring update. Better one next time!

2009-03-20T23:21:00.000+08:00

Greetings earthlings,!!:D currently listening to muttons
Today went iceskates at kallang with Darrellyn and Dom. Haha. Fell down =X
Catched up with them after 1 and half year or so. Miss them lots.
They haven't changed much..hehe. Apart from Dom's braces.
After that, went to meet Niesa,Faris(Niesa's boyf),Imran,Sherradene and Jia Min(sxpartner) and went movie. Movie already started, but still went anyway.
Got the seats at the first row, had to stretch necks up to look at the screen. Heehah.
Sometimes it would be nice to be a giraffe, you know? To pop your head up and destroy everyones view or to bury it in the ground and hide. (:
Watched Race to witch mountain, something to do with UFOs ..kinda funny. Slept at the beginning...
Sherradene find for her schoolmates at library.
Train-ed to amkhub. Mixed all the salt in the coke. o_O" yums
Met family back at bishan then uncle drove us to NUS to watch cousin perform for their concert.
Her dancing damn sexy wor. :D hope can teach me some day :B
Other cousin was doing backstage production.
Met Tiffany on Tuesday! xDD
Shopped at peninnsula , went hmv then train-ed to bugis.
Not enough $$ for lenses. So took neoprints instead? We're so punk(ok,so I'm just poser). :P Uploading soon.
Nooo oh nooooooo! Wearing retainers now.
It goes so far in that there's no wear to put my tongue when I close my mouth.
I sound short-tongue or something. Cannot pronounce 'v'! Vee!! opps?
Bestieeeeeeee is coming tomorrow for dare! Notice I have not uncovered Bestie's identity yet.
We shall furthermore not uncover her identity. We shall be wearing hoods,oversized spects,roach(or whatever it was). Hahaa.
B: Hey look! Is that some slime?
M: No you idiot. That's a tree(:

When I was afraid to blow it by saying a word to you, I realised I blew it away...
But when all else within me feels dry. Jesus, I know you're never distant from me.
Your closer than I think you are. Every lack shall flee, every desire be fulfilled and every lack be provided for in the power of your presence.

you'll never walk alone

2009-03-14T20:06:00.000+08:00

Liverpool beat Man Utd 4-1. Yay,omg.
All the defenders from man utd got sent off? :O
"You'll never walk alone." (:
After crosscountry run, on friday, went out with Jia Min,Frankie,Brenda,Amirul,Niesa,Imran and Aasiq.
It's just too funny until I can't type from laughing. Might end up falling off the chair and start rolling on the floor..again.. :X hahahahahaha
Here's a brief one?
"Quiet la. People want to study ok!"
"Easter come ley."
"Oi. Sorry laa. I love ue."
"You never know."
"Go prove your manhood and grab,kick or slap Ran's butt."
Strange dialogues. :x
Then played truth and dare in the library. Nearly kick out.
Had to hold hands with ..lol.
Before that, escaped from someone who tried to come confess feelings to somebody,as a surprise. But somebody already knew what the surprise was. So we all ended running away from that someone ,who chased her around every level.
Swopped sim card wrongly, had to go back and get it. So stayed with them longer.
Waited for their movie to finish. Some uppersec shouted from one level above to see how stylo they were being gay. Lamerz :-D
Then went for dg.
Can't fill in all the details. Muchmuch more hilarious than that.
That week was one of the darkest,until friday. Quite emo.
Things just stop and work out the same way as it did before at home. Don't feel safe anymore around you.
Strongly dislike being wrongly accused,sweared at. Runaway. =-.

Missing my pontianak hair. -_- Cheryl Teow is so dang evil.
Pretend to follow me then walk off. Ended up having conversation with myself.
Both been eating too much sotong. Or is it just?
Training later,playing as reserve defender for match with Dunearn. After that,going escape theme park with Jia Min & co. ,whoever's coming?
This post is lame.

2009-03-11T18:33:00.000+08:00

Ankle very the pain sia!! x.X
Today few us nearly get detention. Evilness.
Wouldn't mind going, it should be fun.. but if I get in,it has to be with my own intentions. Or else. No.
Ohhh, shutup with your whistling at the teacher guys. My whistling pwns yours!
Confirm get detention faster than you if I start :-D
Shutup bout my pimples too,please. Pimples are like christmas tree deco.
Hang out with Jia Min,Niesa and Amirah before ccas. So funny shooting all those bubbletea pearls and screaming our asses off.
Sexygirl and Pokemon never join C division for training :-( Sadsadsosotsot
But at least jellybeans,patricka,superman and pregnant lady were there!!!! Haha.
Okok, I'm saying goodbye to my braces tomorrow. I'll miss them.
They've become quite a part of me, these last two years. Farewell, braces.
Hello, stained teeth O_O

2009-03-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

We dance unto an unforced rhythem of faith
All hope is not lost;
you'll not let me be put to shame....
The only one who has the every right to condemn me,
chose to give up his life for me.
And his name is Jesus Christ...
There is greater reality than what's visable,appearing so real in this world,found in the word.
I don't want to miss the best of what God has for me,
I don't want to live everyday jut trying to get through it all,because I don't have to.
There's life found in Jesus more abundantly.
Seeing,being conscious of Jesus, enlarged in my situations, all good things will work together for good.
Maybe you've seen my previous post? Jesus has clarified many things to do with it, today,through the preaching in dare. That's why I feel so set free.
It was a really powerful annointing of Jesus presence,felt. Hehe.
Just feel like typing this verses down. :-D

Newkingjames version,Romans 8:28-30 -"And we know all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.Moreover whom He predestined these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified He also glorified."
They're having recruitment for the ministries now, don't know which one to sign up for?
Still thinking.. and thinking... :/
Walked to cityhall with Charity,Clara,Jia xian and Steve. Talked about spiritual things. (:
Ohhhh, my lil sister is coming for service tomorrow!!!! Woohoo<3>
Yay. I can't wait to see her,she can't wait to see me. :9 Hurhurhurr.
But you know what? After knowing all Jesus is to me, seeing myself still out of place I don't care anymore. Like my new blogsong alot alot, hehehehehhh. coolseymanz.

"i'm sorry that it took so long
to write this song
but i gave up
you see one million words
can't describe
how it feels to know your love
where did i go wrong?
i should have told you from the start
that i'm closer then you think
when we're apart
nothing that i've tried
is as simple as this line
but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so i try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day
i swear i'm giving up my inside
to the one
that i adored
i know this world is big enough
for you and i
but i'll give you more
i'm coming home today
to wipe the tear drop from your eyes
i'm totally enamored by your life
nothing that i've done
has ever been for one
but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so i try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day
my life is incomplete
my rights are absolutely wrong
so wake me up
before you leave today
something i need to say
cause they'll be nothing
when you're gone" -international you day,no use for name

Left behind

2009-03-04T21:07:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it's just not worth waking up in the morning

highlight and read the invisable post if you wish.
1.I'm sick of being looked down on.
2.I'm sick of raciiiism
3.I'm sick of getting sweared by strangers at because of that one thing.
Making abusive comments aint acceptable.
4.Nobody chooses to be born as whatever race,whatever look,whatever level of sharpness. Get that straight.
5.Stop stepping on my shoes on purpose.
6.Everywhere I go has its own set of problems.
7.Everywhere get a group of people badmouthing at me. Be it school,church or outside.
8.Even if there is something wrong with me,there's still no excuse to do that.
9.Can't get much support from home. Just have to live with this,and survive.
10.Sometimes when I wake up I find no reason to be confident, what difference does it make if you're gonna be excluded all the way through? Tell me,who's going to change their mind?
11.Disappointed in ca1 results. Didn't do too badly. Though could have done better.
Since only started studying when the test dates drew closer.
Maybe it's cos I'm not as responsible as her,no where near or not at all..slackslack.
12.I lie too much about how I feel,what's going on. I hide,deny.
13.EQ skills are ok. But still have problems communicating with certain people.
14.I'm so drained out. Knee,ankle,shoulder are aching like crazy. Physically too tired,but not sleepy.
15.I've done a few stupid things
Feels like a mess now.
Rested head on the table in class,then tears all came, and then somebody just had to slam my desk..... hard.

Got a call from my primary school to go collect psle certificate. What a joke. *laughs like a donkey* =,-
Just so you know,I'm not here trying to crave for sympathy or whatsover.
I'm just telling it like it is.

seeing the light

2009-03-02T17:05:00.000+08:00

Run,don't walk the sky is falling through!!!!!....
020309
Wassupppps all, missed lots of lessons today since went to watch B`division play
against Yishun Town Sec,north zone champs of 2008 for basketball tournament.
They beat us.
Score of 86- 48
Find them somewhat vicious the way they grab the ball,shouting in their really highpitched voices,pulling their opponent team,that's anderson b division's, jerseys.. and they fall down even when no one near them. Think is fake so they can get the ball :l
Anderson was national champs in 2007.
To me,game was so fast.
Still, had fun watching and cheering. :D though other schools playing next supported them and started jeering us(just a bit)
Free throws back at school,and left..

Drama test today, among the guys ,a lot of them are real beautyqueens yea. gosh?

get real

2009-02-26T18:25:00.001+08:00

Ok, so maybe as the week went along became proud and depended on myself for stuff,things to fall into place,people to leave me alone, instead of Jesus' undeserved grace for me. That drived out a lot of peace. :s
Kind of awful. Nightmares become more real than the last.
A continueous play of them when I close my eyes. From where it stops at,it continues.
Night after night. No joke. I cant explain how haunting and disturbing those can get in the day.
Dreams of insanity,watching it working.. like in another persons life.
Sometimes, to snap back to the real world not knowing which is harder to face out.
Both are just as bad.
But. Both are nothing too big for Jesus,my saviour to turn around!!
Last night,had headache and lost my voice. Croaked alot.
Just like a frog aye. Ribit. :B
Felt depressed to go back to school for the next day. That's not unusual,but cried all the negative thoughts out. Didn't get much better.
Used one of those sermon tapes dare sold to us for halfprice,sticked it on to the stereo and plugged in headphones, it was connected to a cable so ended up sleeping on the floor cos headphones cant stretch that far. It was worth it.
Cleared up my mind.
Now I'm reassured again I'm not facing this alone,never have and never will be.
Eventhough,today, things may not be going as well as I would have liked it to have.. there's always a greater plan,way and first move God has came up with,and it's working right now(na na na na.Lol).
Last saturday,after dare went out with my ex-classmates Kim and KitWai,at tampines mall.
Shall meet with Tif,Cassy and them,another time in march. :D haha Really fun,had lots of laughs. Exchanged news,and all the good stuff:D Hope Cassy's ankle recovers soooon!
Looks like my affiliated school is pretty much the same. That's cool/
Highlight of the day,today was singing and dancing on the soccer field with the rest. HAHAHAHHAAA.
And then singing outside while the rest showering after PE lesson. Hilarious(:
Qi yun's singing voice is nice, cooler than Rihanna's :D
The song time after time is dang nice manz.

"Lying in my bed
I hear the clock tick
And think of you
Caught up in circles
Confusion is nothing new
You say
Go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds
If you’re lost
You can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fallI will catch you
I’ll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time" -Time after time,quietdrive

2009-02-26T18:25:00.000+08:00

Hello. What happened in school doesn't matter. Slept through 2lessons this week.
What happens after school matters more. :D
Bus-ed to amkhub,mac with Niesa,Jiamin,Phyllis,Savonne,Shanice,Jun Da and Gary.
Once reach amkhub the guys try to run off and pangseh us.
Jia Min and Niesa running after them.
I helped them escape,cos I know they'll come find us later anyway.
Well, Gary still wanted to run. So sat at the exit door for a bit,then came out and bumped into Sze Xian,Alvin and Amirul. highfive,highten,highfifteen stylo sey.
They left for ccas, found the rest. Mac-ed,truth&dare.
2.35 left the place,wait 15minutes for bus. So all of us,excluding the guys,who left earlier, cabbed back to school for ccas. Funnysey.
Last week,late 20mins= 20rounds
This week,late 5mins= chiong 5rounds
Strained ankle after layups. Coach says next friday,2pm start already. Wahlnleyyy! (out come the vulgarities :x). Either that means it ends at 5pm or 4hours of training.
No time to hangouts then. Any of you are welcomed to join me at amk macs or kfc around 1pm,provided you eat quickly and don't have to wait for all your friends to come,before you leave school. If not,I'm alone. Hehehh,
Played fullcourt match. Defence is tiring,running up and down grabbing the ball.
That wushufreakofaclassmate just had to walk one round the court to irritate me.
Scored three times at the wings for that match. Oh my mamma would be so proud of me^^ Lol.
Seniors played waterattack. Eh cool.
Looked for Ash and Jia min to see if they had any deo spray cos I didn't wanna stink up rebekah's house at dg later. Haha.
Train-ed to j8. Wait for Rachiiiiiie,Bel and Kenchan.
Bumped into Amirul for the second time that day.
Met Rachie. Macs again.
Bel,Samuel(his sis is my senior) and Kenchan came.
Esther,Stephan,Jeremy already at Bekah's house.
Topic was about loneliness,absence of intimacy with Jesus love.
How people try to replace that kind-of love with other infurior love that cant be satisfied with.
Only worship,even on our own can impart confidence,eq,wisdom and all the good stuff into our lives. Laugh alots.
Listen to worship songs on kenchan's laptop.
Reach home at 11pm. :D

Then yesterday practice on court in the rain,went home at 10pm because the lights went off. o_o Probly the only time the court's empty. Ankle sorish still.
Service today cant take notes, our spiritman can give revelation better I guess,than all the info? Haha.
Was good,but why cant I remember anything from the message except walk by faith and not by sight? Maybe nothing important for me this week.
Played matchmaking game,at macs, combined divo and radical! bahhahaha :x So funny.
Nobody matchmake me thankgod. *breathes*
Radical girls are chio though(:
clapclap to the song dangerous by Akon. HMMMMMMMMMM,
Brrrr,I like that song. :D
Accompany Vi-vi-van<3(someone mispelt her name that way:D) for vocal trial.
Coolseyman. I'm part of her international supporting fanbase! So is Rachiiiiiiiie. Haha.
"Watch out I've seen her type before that girl is so dangerous
That girl is so dangerous that girl is a bad girl
I've seen her type before she's so dangerous
That girl is so dangerous
But to notice you noticing me
From across the room" -- Dangerous,Akon

*Posted on Sunday,1st march..don't know why blogger says 26th feb :S

blackout

2009-02-19T18:55:00.000+08:00

Hey. I turned thirteen. :D
Yeah bestie,you remembered. :D
Sent me screaming,making me hyper on the way to school making me even more late at 6.55,in the morning,giving a wake-up call to the bishan residents(:
and also therefore making me late for school. You rock more uh bestie!
Hehe, thankyou for the awesome day everyone!! :D
Teman,Bestie,Christianne,Ash,Tif,Kim,Cassy(thanks for being my listening ear,last night),Cheryl,Kenchan,Phyllis,Amelia,Savonne,Qi Yun,Sandra,Kaith,Jia Min and Brenda,Trisha
the rest of one-seven and the guys for making us laugh. LOL.
Thanks for the pinkyguitarkeychain Brenda and Jia Min! :-) :-D
I don't know.. shouldn't know ..... and don't think I wanna know anymore.
To know more,see more,hear more makes me more dismayed.
Stop thinking Serene. Go.
You can do it.
Focus.
Nonesensical kinda self-motivation, that's the only thing that'll work right now.
There' s too many limits I'm tempted to test.
I'm okay alone. I'mma loner.
When you do ask questions.... are you really interested in answers? Do you wait for replies?
No. I don't care to live up to your expectations either. Why so possesive?
I call this post a blackout, a permenant switch off.

Errrr,last night went home 9+ at the void deck there was an ambulance waiting there.
Then I saw my neighbour,who the loanshark has been coming after for some years being wheeled out of the lift and blood was dripping onto the floor. Cried.
Aights. Today after school went for history re-test with Ashffaq.
He went mosque for prayers, then went to look for Ash,Trisha,Niesa,JiaMin & Co. at kfc.
Only it took some time to find for them. So instead they had to find me.
Ok, then the rest go change,take neoprints with JunDa. omg,hahahhaaaa. :O
While Ash and I went to buy guy's deoderant spray. Adidas one. We despo after sweating mah.
Go. Buy it. Very syiok. Very strong. Go. x]]
Breeee,
Lied down on the travelator thingy. Szbzx.
By the rest finish their neoprints. Panic! Zoooooooom.
Chiong-ed back to school for training. 20minutes late = 20 rounds.
20 is not a nice number.
3 people injured today. :( That's awful. Hopes your leg,spine heal soon!(: Stay off hard lenses
Use dailies! They're good!
what kind of noisy advertistments am I using for this post?bcnmfcvxzxzxzxzxz!

Qi Yun! :D
Niesa! :D
One Seven!

Got one more group picture just of the girls. But need to spend some time trying to rotate it.

Stop,turn. take a look around..(....)

2009-02-16T20:56:00.000+08:00

Goodness gracious. Absent again from school.
Flu goes on and off ,off and on. Oh fever!
It was fine during the weekend.

Saturday and sunday was the best.
Elaborate another time.
ily sistars:D
Whatever horrible-looking situation you are in, Jesus is setting you up for many blessings.
Trust me,I mean -him!

2009-02-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

Woah, yesterday friday the thirteen, now, today's valentine's day. O_o"
5days after this is my birthday. yay.
Sorethroat, headache and braces very very very the pain ytd so missed school yesterday.(?)
Somehow we manage to live up to your critisisms.
Nothing constructive enough to say to us for us to move on,then shutup and stop your bickering. Urgh.
Even better, you ask stupid questions "Do I look funny to you?" Two students start nodding their heads.
Okaaay:D Tonight gonna havock with Cheryl,go nightlife. Idk where also =="
gosh, how to memorize history facts without continueously checking the dictionary?
Textbook is oh-so lengthy. Still looking round for my notes. :/

Happy valentine's day! "You're it. You're the ultimate you"
030508 yo!
Hehe. ~always your admirer from a very distant distance :l

omg,ily everybody! Have fun today.

to be lost before you are found

2009-02-10T17:10:00.000+08:00

Cheryl made Rachel her human sacrifice.
cheers.

Rachel said I look like a guy here.Choked and started spraying water. Hahahahaa x]] omgla.

If fear is what makes you decide your future journey.....

Then can you still stand your ground?

Hmm, starting to enjoy training a bit more. Need to work on the layouts.

The stategy,know when to clear. Lousy at jumping to catch high balls. Don't ask manz. :P
Rebounds rock though! But 15rounds round the court without stopping? Cripes.
Had fun on Sunday! Third with Rachie,Belbel and Cheryl.
Hang at macs with radical before service. G aint that great. ZhangZiYi agrees.
Technically sat next to G.
Didn't even know it was G until he,err, put his jacket on.
At macs, that song by Akon kept replaying. Make up or make up love? Nono,the title is right now. Omg, thought one part of the song was "wish you could die with me" ,
turned out to be wish you could "dine". Annoying or what?
Rachie going wumsa! wumsa! It's tamil for relax. Hahahashhh
Class was hilarious yesterday. Syakir and his tissue box in the bag just in case the toilet ran out of paper. -_______- okaaay.
3tests in a week so far. 1presentation(ungraded) done,one more to go!

There's always something for you to scrutenise me on,there always will be. I assure you 1000%. Just myob.
Starting to wonder who the real fools are at the end of the day.

[continued*/]}
Last few days have been BADDDD.
I don't care, from now on I'm wearing lenses.
No matter how early I have to get up to put them on. Grr,
The ball smacked my face bout 8times this week. Twice on my spects. Dizzy liao.
Once on the lips.
Phyllis absent today.:( Denka never come for training.:(
How saddening :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
rawrrawr, fangyi teaching me how to act tough. yay. rawrrawr..
Random people are saying "hi" nowadays. How cool.
Yet today still sucks.

2009-02-07T22:22:00.000+08:00

:D :D Anger has died off,and won't ever come back. Because I reject it in Jesus' name :D Haha,
Deleted my last negative post. :x
Had extended praise&worship today! yay
You put a gleam in my eyes
You put a skip in my steps
Your hope remains yet
You put a song in my mouth and a sword in my hand
My heart overflows with the goodness of the Lord

Towards the end of worship,after pastor addressed the group of people I'd been standing with in the front saying something about this group here finding their calling.
Felt some warmth all over me.
Like all the burdens had been lifted up and away from me.
Suddenly had this clarity of mind that hadn't been there for a long time.
From within heard a voice telling me to check for the throat.
Next song was You alone I praise. Aye,found my voice had become so clear and restored! Hehe
Then pastor laid hands on those who felt the warmth. Went with Danielle to get prayed for.
Before I had finished being prayed over I fell backwards really fast ok. The floor was quite ouch.
Haha. Strong impact much.
Blessings must be manifested in many lives today. I'm so happy.
Cried with the rest of my sistars whenever emotional hurt was mentioned.
Sermon was great. Bout the heart being a place of faith. Wisdom being the largeness of our heart
Heart being the first place where life starts,and where dreams begin. Yeah,and Jesus came to heal the brokenhearted:D Waitwait,and also said something to stop talking to myself. Hawhaw.
After dare we went to skygarden to celebrate my birthday in advance. Awww,thankyouthankyou!!!! ilyilyily. B-)
Very blessed to know you. Thankyou !
Cheryl,Belbel,Meishi,Geraldine,Rachie,Vivian,Jeremy,Clement,Caleb,Danielle,Kenchan,Cara,Yingying,Samantha,Racia!!
For wishes and presents. :D
Train-ed to 'chiong' bahru. Haha. Then bus-ed to queensway to look for something,that i found. LOL

With no pretense ,draw near

2009-02-02T18:02:00.000+08:00

"Noob, I am your father......"..
That never fails to make me smile(:

Last three weeks has been in its worse. All those ups and downs of 2009 takes time getting used to. Been crying a lot.
Felt lots of hurt,exclusion,unacceptance and hearing racist remarks,being sweared at and getting dirty looks from strangers,or sometimes people who know me. Keeping your cool on the outside,while underneath your blood is boiling to the max is unbearable.
I'm quite serious about dying my hair black.
My eyes hurt when I fit my contact lenses into my eyes yesterday.
When I started crying, it, err, dropped out of my head :l
It's more than just school, it's nearly all around.
Some people are really kind. Others aren't.
Figured those others aren't the ones who I would like, in particular. So who cares.
I really treasure that friendship you gave at that time. Memory is still stuck,and left behind in 2007. Loved you a lot as a bestie. Hurts to be replaced.
After all that process of coming to terms with, remembered this week's praise and worship in the first service, and what the wl said really spoke to me,as simple as those words seems
"Every lack must flee before Him"
Decided if I need my life to change, I have to radical about the things of the word.
There are still times when I don't see the favour of God working in my life.
There are still times when I don't see the wisdom working.
But, all these things are of the unseen,not yet visable. Despite that,it is manifesting.
Jesus is THE truth.
Really love the song Name above all names by new creation church :D
It hasn't got to the point where my happiness revolves around Jesus,not people,not material things. But I believe this year it shall be manifested,and much more to come.

Debates today was very sucky. Firstly,the topic is "Should every female have a right to an education" is sexist,non-arguemental and conclusionless, since it is already stated in the united nations that every child does have a right to education.
It's supposed to be an "informal" debate, you should be allowed to raise any relevant point.
Yet the teacher says I made a sweeping statement to say that even uneducated women can also become sucessful.
You have objections? You deny that they can?
If you had done any research, you'd see that ,at least some uneducated women out there have became sucessful. They could have taken over their parent's businesses and made it big.
Which after making my point, started getting personal attacks from my classmates right in front of your very nose.
You,teacher, are just a very lousy biased scumbag.
That is just for something else you did without no reason.
The rest of the points raised all kind of sounded the same,promoting sexism. Split girls against guys.
You just gave a flat wrong for my answer.
Are you prejudice to uneducated people? O.O
It's supposed to be informal.
One sensible friend of mine refused to speak up, she didn't want to get humiliated.
This is included in our ca assesment. :( what's your criteria?

P.S. : I GOT INTO BASKETBALL.

tell me, what's at the back of your mind?

2009-01-29T18:05:00.000+08:00

Eh you.
YOU KEEP YOUR FILTHY COMMENTS TO YOURSELF.
SO WHAT IF I'M UGLY?
MUST HIDE MY FACE SOMEWHERE? :-(
WHATEVER UH, grrr.

#edited./*
YOU SAY IT BEST WHEN YOU SAY NOTHING AT ALL. Jeez.

Things unseen

2009-01-27T11:51:00.000+08:00

and I just can't resist the fire extinguisher.
Blurqueen loves you!

Starting from cny eve.......

Met Cheryl at fareast to look around for clothes,see extensions. :D
Cheryl bought clothes. It seems I came all the way there just to buy chippies. Haha ;D
Then we camwhore using self-timer on her new phone. Did a lottt of strange poses. :9
Really enjoyed talking to her:D thanks for listening eh,
loves you LOADS!
Had to rush back home afterwards.
Got to grandma's house. Ate more.
They used the boiler thing for steamboat. Hehhh,
Had to buy drinks for the next day, so went out with my two cousins to buy some.
But you see once we got to ntuc it was closed-.- So found those convenient stores and bought.
It was so dark manz.
Watched Rush Hour 2 on teevee. Very funny.
Then uncle changed channel and then watched KungFu Hustle. omg,even more funny.
After killing people they do the michael jackson dance. O_o" hurhur
It ended at 11pm, that's when we all went home.
SereneTingmeiTingyi
in the car,so shutup and drive tingyi! :D
Lois, she shares the name of superman's gf I think
Judith! omg,so sweeeeet.

Joshua now shuaige:D

Next day my two cousins ,tingyi and tingmei came again. This year they'r both
20++
Three of us were wearing contacts.
Along with my two uncles and aunts, grandma and mum.
Have two other lil cousins born not long ago, Lois and Judith Anne.
Judith is still my favourite:D
She's so cute!!!! She's 14months old and knows how to blow a flying kiss already okay!
So fun playing with her:D
Sadded when she left, though there was more flying kisses for me ^^
Lil cousin Joshua didn't do his routine of running around the house, this year. :( lol,haha.
Relatives kept asking me snoopy questions. So what huhhhh. Racist ah? Wanna fight isit?>;[
Visited another part of my grandma's side of the family, they were superstitious types. l:
Felt pretty uncomfortable there.
Back at grandma's house celebrated my chinese cheena birthday:D
I'm born on the first day of cheena new year,year of the rat. Technically speaking, cheena new year is my cheena birthday still. So according to the cheena calender ,I'm fourteen! Hawhaw.
19th february rocks. 12.15AM sharppp.
Watched Rush Hour 3, pursuit of happiness and some spanish wrestling show.
Ohyes, it's the acceptable year of the Lord. We're waiting upon Jesus for the right time to work through us to see their salvations.

I'm still visiting today

More visits= more people
More people= more handshakes
More handshakes= more well-wishes
More well-wishes= more money
More money= a very happy Serene
A very happy Serene= a very happy you

ok,what nonsense formula. Serene is a crazy girl.

No weapon formed against us shall prosper

2009-01-24T13:11:00.000+08:00

I'm just working backwards for this post:D
Reached home at 1AM yesterday,after catching the last train back from indoor stadium, after church combined service(: Pastor Mark rocked. Jesus rocked more during praise and worship!:D Coach E's acting was damn cute. "Totalllyyy"
"To know me is to love meeee."
"Totally."
Walking home in the dark, since the last bus was at 11 I think?
oooooh, loving the nightlife.
Before service met Becky,Kenchan,Viv,Rachie,Bel,Cara and Danielle at Plaza sing.
Started crying on the train while on the way there,I have no idea why.

So as not to confuse you,whether you care or not shall start from after school. Hawhaw.
Still had some time after dismissal before had to meet Whits at bugis.
Logged out, couldn't find anyone around else so walked back to the mrt with Joseph,Jun Da and John.
All their initials are JJJ ._.
Killed the time walking around orchard road. Someone I don't know kept calling me,
it seems some classmate of mine referred me to her.
Well, if you're only looking for me because that particular reason and not because you're genuinely interested to be friends, forget it.
I don't like your attitude. Keep calling for whatttt.
Ehhhh when Whits came she bought a bag at Bugis street. *holds nose* the smell can kill me.
Uh,not the smell of the bag,the place, I mean. Stinko area.
Bought dress there. Then yackyackyack at starbucks. :B hehhhh
God. Can't hide my anger any longer.
Now everybody knows.
Still need enough time to sort myself out.

Jesus take the wheel
Can't take this anymore
I'm letting go, I can't do this on my own -Jesus take the wheel,Carrie Underwood

Finding it harder than usual to apply those principles in my life. But Jesus is still very faithful.
Put my trust in your grace and unending willingness to show your power through me.
Thanks b e l o v e d Rachie and Bel for cheeering me up yesterday! Loveyou sisterrs!
dongdongchiang x2 xin nian dao!!!! gongxifcukcai. LOL,omgththth! *cover mouth*
Can get see red(red is sexy),play majhong,eat as much without any objections,hear more lame jokes,get asked strange questions,entertain myself at peoples houses,see my cousins,~~better than reading their blogs:D~~ Which is really funny sometimes :B Hurhurhur
BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY WISHES TO ASH AND CHRISTIANNE THIS MONTH!
~Ash,eventhough I have known you for less than a month, I consider you one of the closer friends I know in school who are open enough to talk,rely on and make us laugh with your humour,and of course who's hottt. Happy thirteenth.
~Christianne, I have known you for 2years oreadies!! Thanks for being so kind and generous:D ilys, many well wishes. Happy fourteenth. lallas.
Cherry ,where'd you go? :-( I miss you.

P.S :Can you handle it?
*jumps off chair*

payback time

2009-01-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

Met Whits at citylink,then went for first service.
It was,if I may copy Bel, A W E S O M E. Haha,
Long time since drank Starbucks. Thanks for coming Whits,love you manymany babe!
Let's call Jesus, who hasn't got an address since he's living in us,into all our crycry situations.LOL!
She shall be intro-ing me to another lesb from her class soon :D hehehe. *dies hard on chair laughing* ahahaha. *hides under chair* -,- Siao liao.
Had fun gossiping,complaining about schools today.
Should be guarding my mouth,heart and ears. But let's hope this would be the last time I carry out my nonsense.
What's with the weather? Hate it. The wind gives us bad hair day(ok,won't say who I' refering to, don't try guessing,please. It's not Whit's, for sure.)
Windowshopped for bags. No nice. No nice ones at all.
Saw the new movie dvds release.
Then headed down to the basement for PAYBACK TIME! Felt the thickskinned mood.

take that smile off your face
it's sending shivers down my spine
scared to get high

yesyes,! Shall be meeting all my lovely ex-classmates in the march holidays!
Hurry,hurry! When you all free sooner? ily&imy! x]]

*continued post//#*]
School was kinda awful today.
Urgh. You make me want to cry like a baby. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :'-( :'-(
No english lessons today. Thankgod,praise Jesus,hallelujah.
Things got better after reccess, right after revenging Rong jie chasing from around the library shelves, to around the school just to smack him back. Smack me too many times oreadies. >;( ouch.
Followed Amelia,Phyllis,Frankie,Hyqel and Syakir to amk hub. They went eat at macs,
while I waited for Jochebel and Andrew to come to minitoons.
Then walked around waiting for Cheryl. Go walk one round the supermarket too. Haha.
Cheryl came to look for cny clothes. lol,cannot find there. =x
So sat around joking,chatting,sharing problems felt more refreshed after meeting them and went home happy,after train-ing with Bel. So blessed to have these friends:D

clare is a weirdo

2009-01-15T20:11:00.000+08:00

HEY SMEXAYE PEOPLE,! :P
Back here to updates yawww!
PE lesson rocked! Ran 3rounds around the field holding hands with Phyllis,and,uh, we were one of the last to finish. LOL.
Joined Kaith,Cara and Jasmine for rehersal. They invite me to join to do their hiphop performance. Uhhh,I'm so noob. :B
So stayed back.
Can't go for dare this week. :'( Because of cca screening on Sat _l_
Ehhhhk,time-clash! Time clash! doomdoom,!
I'm sure you'll miss me :P Hehhh,
On the second dareservice of the year,last year was the first I attended. And now,

Zzz. First I miss dg,now dare service. What next?
I'll not like to think.

I'm scared,I need protection. and there's nothing wrong with me.. i hope......

Engraved upon your heart

2009-01-10T11:26:00.000+08:00

From top to bottom(since i haven't got round to rotating the picture) Chihuahua,Nisea,Brenda,Phyllis and I

Hair combing session with Ash

AmeliaSerenePhyllis
Sharktale

Yesterday was just so funny.
Phyllis kept trying to catch her paper for the locker form whenever it flew away. So cute x]
Went to the physics lab for science. omg so cool! Badly want to make some mutated object.. :-)
English lesson was so kns. Teacher never even introduce herself,keeps walking in by the back door. What she says is too ridiculous so the guys keep answering her back,screeching their chairs,clapping and banging the table. Haha
Couldn't stop laughing. Tried to hide it. But. Neverminds,
She tells us to shutup.
Then she goes on-and-on about how our class would fail english. Her reading makes me want to vommit.
Someone said "Teacher,I feel sick..." then burped at her. that was so wth.
What a united class.
Jia Ling kept nagging at me to stop smiling because it wasn't funny(?)(?)
Searched for books on the booklist with Kaith,the Chihuahua during MT period.
There's secret garden and anne of green gables on the list. I read both the classic and unbridged versions and the simplified version by the end of p2 :/ Strange
At lunch logged ourselves out of the school system with the fingerprint scanner. Then changed for second rounds at volleyball. Went to the library to eat ice cream with Emeldon,Amelia,Ash(she's back!),Jia Min and Phyllis.
Instead of volleyball, I changed the word to vommitball. How cool.

LET'S PLAY VOMMITBALL.
Got to the sports hall at 2pm with Amelia,Ash and Phyllis,Brenda and some others. The coach was more controlled today because there were two teachers-in-charge who looked reasonably pleasant,so no vulgarities from him.
All four of us got kicked out. HAHA. Awesome. We started singing and skipping on our way out of the sports hall

"With a smile on our face
We skip away
We clap *two claps* We clap *two claps*"

When we got back to class we started on part2 of Freestyler dance then the dance for Low.
Had another break. Camwhored with Phyllis and walked about the school.
Saw Amirul,Chihuahua and Emeldon dancing to the song Barbie Girl. Hehehehe. So gay and cute :B
Then we joined them and danced along to Elmo's world and Barney. Sharktale(Syakir) and Hyqel having fighting match in the class-.-
Changed for campfire. More photos(:
Campfire rocked. Screamed til throat was sore. ONE`SEVEN won for most enthusiastic class!!!!
Chihuahua was amazing. She was told to do last minute solo dance for class performance and did it so well. Then class just followed her queue for the dance.
When chihuahua came off stage. All the 1/8 crowd round her going "Hi sexaye. Nice dancing."
Did the massdance,school cheer. Started singing my guardian angel with Trisha.
The last game was for funkiest hairstyle.. peer leaders spiked Brenda's hair for her.
goshhh, so cool. I want spikes bebeh. :P
Had to take our bags from class. Walked back in the dark. The lights were flickering.
So sharktale made ghostly noises in front until he walked into the pillar.
Then reached home at 9.50pm!

*[continued//]
Don't wanna use up too much space so I'm compiling posts.
Service was awesomes:D I'm so not offended by all those false symptoms.
It gives me more of a reason to believe. Thanks Jesus,if not for this clarification in this sermon it would be hard all the time to get through the week.
But thanks because truly,I know you're bigger and greater than all that.

That there's your abundant life in every part of me,especially my brain. *grins*
Praise&worship at first service rocked. Went with Becky at gallery west.

"You know the plans you have for me.
You will complete your work in me.
Because of Christ I am your child

I'll be still
Know that you are God
By your spirit I cry

My Abba,my father.
You love me forever
My future secure in your hands
To worship you only
To none else will I bow my heart.
For you are my Abba,my God" -Abba Father,NEW CREATION CHURCH

There was a new song by church today at the end. Really touching. So proud that New Creation is all about Jesus,who's really moving in it all.
Thanks loads for the encouragement Becky:D
Stay strong and tough. Bless your heart man.
Hang around the rock kidz ministry. Haha. Cool.
I wanna serve there! But I have to wait til next year.
Would you mind giving me an exception to serve,please? Jesus church ain't about structure. It's the calling. Anything placed in my heart is of God and of nothing else. Ok,so that just sounds demanding. But. Hahahhah,neverminds. In due time,my daddygod shall exalt me to serve him in some way.
Stayed for third as well. Kind of regretted. Felt overwhelmed after the service.
Rachie's hair is so cooool!!
When I left for home found myself doing all kinds of strange things.
Suddenly felt conscious of people looking funny at me again. Cried for abits.
And you just know they're racists. That's the only thing there is to their behaviour.
It's just like that anywhere I go. Usually when I'm alone.
So if people want to stare at me like that,I'll give you something funny to stare at.
Or so it felt at that time. So started walking about like a hooligan around junction8 enjoying the fright on everyones face.
Bumped into mum,who's jaw hung open when she saw this gangster-butchy walk of mine.
I regret la. I shouldn't have degrade myself knowing my position in Christ.
But it was so fun shocking people!! I can teach you how to walk like that if you want^^ leg open,slouch,stick your head out,swing your arms and scowl.
It looked really ugly.
Hahahaha! So funny! Perhaps I should consider joining drama. :/
Another thingy is.... in the middle of the night I start screaming,just recently.
Ohdears, my behaviour gets more and more kuku as the days go by. Stress? don't know.

One thing has improved this year. I haven't give a toot to what people think or are doing to me behind my back. If I keep staying conscious of myself,no way can I be used to help anything or anyone. It's best not to know too much.

Good that most of the time pre-occupied and kept busy. But that doesn't mean I'm going to be oblivious to the truth though.

Going to avoid blogging next week.

Tomorrow got CA1 compo writing. Jesus is forever faithful and his spirit in me has helped me through in its prompting for all of my exams,that is,when I listen which sometimes I don't. l:

His abundant life can 100% open up my mind.

kau simi kau?

Rock,rock,rock! Rock the microphone!

2009-01-08T20:11:00.000+08:00

I GOT SELECTED FOR VOLLEYBALL YESTERDAY!?! Eeurghhh..!
How?!! Why??! *screams* D:
Have to go tomorrow for second selection, compulsary. Suck-ish.
Ohyeahs. Just cos I managed to jump 175cm,that's why they let me in. ohwth.
I noticed I'm blogging nearly everyday this week ._. Uploading pictures from class tomorrow.
So I have to stay in school for 14hours tomorrow. W-O-W- so not syiok.
Couldn't stop yawning today. Ash didn't come.
As usual during reccess went with Trisha to wave to the buses,passerbys. Thanks for waiting for me outside class(:
Hald awake,zombie-ing around the school not knowing what's going is on gets you through the day without much thought to your spasticness,self-indulgement.. awesome.
Never yack much today. You should be grateful :D
I choose to forget what happened for the rest of the day.
Only that I saw Elaine Choa at junction8 after school! Enjoy kcpss yeah? x]]
I think I saw Nikki in the morning too crossing the road near her house?
Body still aches from yesterday's cca screening. There wasn't even any warm ups.
Olynn Saleh was on Suria at 9.30pm last night. Did my homework watching her.
Really really stunning eyes. Freaking gorgeous ok! This sounds so gay :D
Didn't enjoy the show much. She's so dmn gorgeous when she first appeared in the first scene.
After that dad took over the tv. My foot started swelling for quite long. But,hey,when I woke up I noticed I looked taller.... or shorter.
Tomorrow is a different day.

2009-01-07T20:01:00.000+08:00

Came in with Amelia today.
Spent reccess waving at people on the road,blowing kisses and other insane stuff. I get fed up when i wave to random people at school and when they don't wave back :(
Hmmm,HE period was damn funny. Because Emeldon said he could do better than us at it.
Then Ash was like "Of course. You help your mother in the kitchen everyday..cos you're ...*handwave*"
The drawers in the HE room were seriously gross la. Had a beetle and another creepy crawly inside for Ash to use the kitchen knife to kill. Hahahha.
The inside of the oven was a lot worse. Got Aasiq to clean it for us. Thankyou!
Got CCA screening today! Volleyball,netball,table tennis,badminton,basketball and choir.
Volleyball was the first. and omg la. The coach was nasty.
This is the way he made his introduction. "You know why you're in NA? Because you can't follow instructions. I'm telling you this cos it's the truth. You better don't waste my time.
For the past 33 years I have been teaching girls. They always make a fool of themselves by giggling like idiots and jumping like elephants................. Many are called but few are chosen."
That was such a prejudice,idiotic,sexist and irrelevant thing to say.
The phrase "many are called but few are chosen" is part of a verse from the bible in a parable.
But it has such a deeper meaning than that.
Then call the players in the team "Zha bor!" , "Stupid girls."
Humiliation or what.
Prayed in tongues and did alrights for most screenings apart from badminton and tabletennis cos was too tired by then.

After it all I was sweating,stinking and hunching too much. Kenneth spray the deorant in class.o_o
Was running for the bus ,ran to the bus stop and realised I dropped my wallet. So I ran back.
Like shuttlerun -____-
Someone shouted from the bus stop. "ran damn fast uh you." shites.

zomgs,

2009-01-06T20:18:00.000+08:00

Last two days of schools have been damn tiring.
Spending 11hours in school is just taking things too far.
Lost the class when walking about yesterday,thankgod saw Frankie who was just as lost. Lol,jk.
During break Tricia,Denise and I were at the basketball court waving madly to all the buses that passed by. Someone waved back :D
Had mass dance,badge pinning ceremony rehearsal yesterday. We were all dismissed 20minutes late :(
So today we were dismissed 30minutes early ^^
Had the pinning ceremony today. On stage, the VP shook my hand and asked if I was nervous cos my hand was so cold. I was like "Yaaa." haha
Lessons were boring.
Ran round with Amelia and Phyllis getting people's number. Haiqul prank called Denise.
So when we found out it was his. Needed to know how to key in his name. Asked his friends cos he said he dunnoe how to spell his own name. So his friend was like "How bout h-i-k-e-r?"
Then Joseph keyed in his number 995 on Amelia's phone and his name as Police. That's so wrong. 995 is ambulance number man.
Nisea,Cat and forgot who drew on the board dedicating it to the student counsellors. It was of spongebob! :B
During startright workshop.....
*[edited//] Someone uh.... tsktsk. damn cute youknows.

The rest of the lesson had one game where had to use the objects for the story..
The one come up by our group's one was about some guy with a bikini. Didn't get it then :\ it's very logical though.
Class is very funny.
Walked to mrt with Amelia ,stalked behind jamie and friend. apparently they ignored us both.
They got off same stop as me. Got bored stalking,

Ohhh,thankgod school starts at 8.10am tomorrow. An hour of less crap to listen to.

Third of the EAR.

2009-01-04T17:42:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the third of the month! Yesterday was the third of the year! Ohdears, hope I'm not being superstitious or anything. Nuhhhh,

Played ball with MH yesterday at Toa payoh court. It was so,errr,empty and full of leaves all over the court ._.

Then took a bus to marina to get to Suntec. Oldfolks getting really unbearable nowadays.

The sneeze. They spit. The burp. All on the bus. Eeeurgh.

Fell asleep on the bus. Woke up to find the bus moving along tekka market around little india. Started freaking out thinking that I missed the stop.

So met the dg,Cara,Danielle and Yingying at subway. Kit called me twice. So yapped on the phone with her til realised was standing near,not that close but near enough to smell the puddle of vommit on the floor. That's one of the reasons why I hanged up.

Isn't this just the goriest blog you've ever read? l: Hehehhh.

Discussed at subway about school. Think some of the things are just plain insane.

Saw Zann at the arcade. Where was Bobby? Did he come?I never see him. He's an imaginary friend of hers(:

Went for dare after that. As usual,it was awesomes.

On the way back home got heartbreakkkk of two things. DONT SAY THINGS LIKE THAT :(

and something and something else.

LOL,nonesense....... cried when left. Pathetic. My stupidity should amuse you. Really,it should..

It's not so much what was said but the way you did,and I'm still thinking why you did. Because it wasn't the first time,then I was like searching for the right expression to front. Such a fake yes?

Some things did happen. But it wasn't my fault.

Ran off for the third time this week when mum tried to reason with me why people are like that. Coincidence. It's the third day.

Too lazy to straighten anything out. Running from things are a much better solution because I don't want conflicts. I don't want to speak what I really think.

So today went for first service because mum was serving at the Rock. Went to support. Would be worried if there was any tripping. Fortunately,no spilling of cups. Hahaha. Jokings(: That wouldn't and shouldn't happen.

Was really fed up not getting any seats though I queued. Sat on the floor. Used to sitting on the floor with skirts already. Rebekah and Esther were there too. They lent me a manga comic to read. Prettycool.

Loved praise&&worship today! Pastor said that he disallows his daughter to read Harry Potter,TWILIGHT(yes!I knew something was up with it! Thankyou for that prompting Holyspirit), Final Fantasy and w.i.t.c.h ,cos it can be demonic.

Sensible enough. *nod*

Message was on resting and tongues.

Jochebel and Rachel asked me to take ticket for them for third,which I tried but got fedup since a few people cut the queue. Cussed under my breath. So asked mum reserve seat for me to stay for praise&&worship in second.

Met Cheryl,Bel and Rachie later. cheryl wanted a group name. Rachie and I have decided on 7eleven. 7 is a complete number. Not too sure if this group consists of 7names or more. But I like it.

Thanks Rachie for helping with the eyeshadow.

Met with MengShui(sp) and Shasha.

When Shasha asked what schools we're from Rach and Bel said they were from MIH, I was from St Andrews. like wth. haha. And Cheryl from St G's :D

Hahaaa,omg, so funny.

After that went home.

Do the neccessary for school,then play b-bsll.

2009-01-02T19:34:00.000+08:00

Pheww. Being in school for orientation from 7am to 6pm is just so..uhhhh... *faints*
But it's cool though.
People are more relaxed and friendly. Easier to make friends too. Just smile. Lol.
Wore my belt wrongly. It's too high,need to resow until it's reaches somewhere near the waist.
I'm in class one seveeeen! Most fun class.
Rules are strict though.. is sleeping in class a form of offence? :( Saw it on the screen somewhere. Aiyoooos. Confirmed warning :(
Big thankyou to the student councillors for giving us ideas and being patient with us.
Sandra took our class! Yayyy!
So played the icebreaker games.
Laughed so much. haha. haha. hahaaaa.
At first they suggested to do the song womanizer for the dance. My face was like o_o
*I object! I strongly object!*
So used the song Low. Cat cheorographed the dance. She was awesomes la.
NA and NT form one gang :B
Got to know Nisah,Cat,Jia Ling,Savonne,Mun Ling,Qi yun and some others.. exceptionally good for the first day hor?

2009,here we come. like it or not. you've no choice but to love its

2008-12-31T23:04:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW EARS IN 20 MINUTES! HAPPIER NEW EARS!!!
I want to screw all the negative things into a bottle and throw it out far into the sea and pray no one finds it,only the devil would and taste his own bullshit.... There were so many negative things I've planned to write that wrecked the day,but now know better not to. Because the grace I have is sufficient to see me through. And ohhh,! There is restoration.

I'm getting tight on my handphone bill so sorry if I can't pick up all calls and reply all messages.
Wasted it on other things today =X
Just to let you know how much I appreciate you all for being there.
In all the fun times and bad moments, it's all there to help us grow to the best of it.
We've got out so much of this year. ILY manymany!<3>,
The days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them."
I believe this verse applies to non-believers as well. How else would you be saved and experience his love if your days weren't fashioned for you huh? :D
2009s the acceptable year of the Lord shall be going to have manymany 100fold souls saved. Amen?
Yeahhh. And I'm glad to say this year I don't hate anyone. *nods*
I love people because Jesus loves me, and if they do nonesense to me. That's ok.
Because,I repeat, there is restoration. 20fold to 50fold to 100fold! Got super abounding favour man!
This year I wanna see all the inner-most desires of our hearts come to past,when we come boldly before our heavenly, AbbaFather! I also wanna see what it is that the word of knowledge given at camp is,and see how it could bless other peoples lives. It's the season still you knows.
Yupyup, I also wanna thank jesus for this freedom I've had this year.
Includes late nights out too. Hurhur(:
Ya la, ya la. Blessed mans.
Can't wait to see you even more blessed in the coming year!
2008s great though...

2008-12-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure if you inherit fears or develop them as you grow up..
The only fear babies have is of loud noises or moving things.

Achluophobia- Fear of darkness
Acrophobia- Fear of heights.
Aeronausiphobia- Fear of vomiting secondary to airsickness.
Agateophobia- Fear of insanity
Aichmophobia- Fear of needles or pointed objects.
Allodoxaphobia- Fear of opinions.
Altophobia- Fear of heights
Anablephobia- Fear of looking up.
Anthropophobia- Fear of people or society.
Antlophobia- Fear of floods.
Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single.
Apiphobia- Fear of bees.
Asthenophobia- Fear of fainting or weakness.
Atelophobia- Fear of imperfection.
Atychiphobia- Fear of failure.
Bibliophobia- Fear of books

I think the above is some fears I might have had :\ Tiffie showed me the list.
But fear not. Jesus protects me. And you too,of course.
Met Kimmie at the platform. She boarded the same train as me.
Was ks enough to want to go look for her in the train from compartment to compartment.
We waited for Tiffie and Cassy to reach Tampines mall :D
Headed to popular to buy stationery. Tif bought FOB cd.
Watched Cassy drum at the arcade. W-O-W. She was so pro.
For me- eyes can't coordinate with brain= brain can't coordinate with movement = true noob
Didn't plan to watch a movie but anyways, we did. So we watched the Day the Earth Stood Still.
Um, it was, errrr, very educational. Nuuh, it was really touching. Fought back the tears.
There was one thing the actor, John Cleese,who's now very old said that was really true, "People only change when it comes to the breaking point,when you give them the chance"..
After the movie everyone left,apart from Cassy.
So we went to ToysRUs and messed about. LOL.
Then we went back to arcard to drum and play dancedance revolution.
And you've no idea what spastic is until..until.. you watch me la? :P hehhey!
Played the shooting game and died x[[ Awwwwww,!
Habbo was full of assholes in the morning. Few people were so free enough to say crude things to me. Gawd. Only one peep from my friendslist was online -___-
Another idiot popped up ,and was like "Hi! How is your love life?" No such exsistance has taken place in my life.
Tution-ed today. Couldn't tell the difference between "heartwarming" and "light-hearted"..zz.
One guy was asleep,snoring in tution. So they sent him out.
Had to re-write my essay thanks to my sprawly small handwriting. Oh,i love it. No one insults my writing except ME(;
Ended up writing what cher called an "evil" story. Haha haha. Muahaha. Siaoliao.
Won't bore you.
One last thing! I wanna go to the TingTings concerttt!!!! It's on a school night. Wonderful, ain't it? You're welcome to come with me. Whoever wants to go,or whatever? :s
okok, enough nonesense. bye

Here we go again

2008-12-28T20:05:00.000+08:00

"No, no, no, you know it will always just be me
LET'S GET THESE TEEN HEARTS BEATING FASTER,FASTER! "-Lying is the most fun,Panic! at the disco
and
"I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know,I've got to let it go" -Lenka,the show

Only got nearly 3hours sleep,last night. While walking randomly round the house at 12.30AM, saw a file drop right in front of me and all the contents were scattered on the floor. At its stationary position,it wasn't even that close to the edge of the table to be knocked off. Gawsh,oh please la..the wind can't blow it off the table. Was freaking scared. Ran back to my bedroom,bolted the door and switched on two nightlights -_____-"
Long time since funky stuff happened in the household. Ohmannnn,!
Couldn't sleep much,just rolled around for few hours. Possibly knocked off at 2AM.
Woken up by footsteps that paused outside my door at 4.30AM. Opened it and there wasn't anybody :s
Couldn't get back to sleep after that.
Heard a shout from outside the window,then a flutter of wings. Reminded me of a bat or something. But that's not possible right?
Told my dad about it in the morning. And as I was putting on my contact lense in the morning,he burst into the room,saying "Did something just drop?I heard something drop!" hahahahahaha.
Today is the day I've officially been in New Creation for a year. Came on the last week of the year,last year. Hahahahah, yayyyy!
So went for 2services. Sat on the floor for the first. Just like the year before(: Hehehhs
:O Happy birthday Pastor Lian!
When Pastor Prince was talking bout repentance,mum was like "Yes! Amen,Serene! Don't act so spastic huh.." Lols,can't help it!! I want to help it but can't! So won't try to not be ,and make things worse. By grace I won't behave that way.. How you behave ain't always what you really are bby!

After the first service mum took me to Marina to buy a watch,because the ones I thought I had were missing ._.
wth. Cheryl was so hilarious in third lor.
Pastor: People have two wives (it's pretty inaccurate,can't what the exact words are. Pardon)
Pastor: NONESENSE!
Cheryl: AMEEEEEEEEEN!
Everybody: *Turns around to stare*

Cool. Plus Brandon's christmas present :B

Now, about yesterday. Divo went to Reb's house for dg outing.
The level1 guys from EJ were there too,because of Esther. The guys outnumbered the girls.
At Rebs house the twins and the rest were looking for alcohol.
Watched the video a christmas wish ,played waterbomb(gawd,I got soaked) ,played at the bishan park playground and played volleyball there too.. It was like sheer havock. After we came,there weren't any small kids left. Viv found a phone on the bench. But I think because it's prepaid so we couldn't use it to call the numbers,not that no one picked up. Remembered someone saying something like
"Let's sell this phone, you all can have 1% of it each, we'll give 10% to the church ,and the rest goes to me" ,or whatever. Saw some freaky photos in that phone. Desperate or what? Eew.
Later,a game of monkey became a basketball game. Despite their height the level1s can throw the damn ball really high. They started dribbling the ball real low til can't snatch it away from them. No fair >:[ I feel so infurior man.. Gah. Show-offs! x]]
I SHALL HAVE MY REVENGE!!
yesyes,forgot to tell you about christmas. drank my parent's glass of wine they left on the table. It tasted awful.
I mean I like the taste of wine but this was organic or something nasty.
Drank half their glass(not each) and my head felt heavy.
Thanks for bestest christmas all! xDD

Our childhood is slipping faster than sand through our fingers

2008-12-24T18:17:00.000+08:00

Merry christmas eve. If your presents aren't bought,wrapped and given..remember to kick santa(:
Hanged out with KitWai yesterday! :D She's still someone I trust a hell lot.
Thanks for advising me eh(: ,&& also listening to the stupid crap I have to say :s Think I'll miss her a lot next year,though fought abits.
Bernadette and Olivia came too.
Walked from mall-to-mall along Orchard Road. Since we decided to catch the 2pm twilight movie,which's supposed to be 3d or whatever.
Seriously uh,Angus thongs and perfect snoggings is a much better movie than Twilight. Zz, Many people find Robert Pattison(or however you spell it) hot. Well,he has a huge chin,in few scenes you can see he hasn't shaved and wears loads of red lipstick ._. Looks pretty gross to me. Jacob Black is better,really. But,on the whole,both are far from good-looking.
Their acting was average,at least not TOO overdone.
After the movie stood outside the washroom waiting for the rest,there were this group of eight ahlians eyeing me from head to toe,they brushed pass me and went "Bye loser!" *beams*
I'm so flattered you noticed me there!

Been called worse things....

Browsed at the manga comics at taka. All of a sudden manga actually appeals to me,used to hate it. Used Bernadette's discount card to pay together. Didn't have enough, so now I owe Kit $2. Thanks for great day gal!
Spent 2hours trying to read 100pages til 3AM.

Kit and I

Hanging out with Chester the cat at the void deck!

Splitticky kick

Awesome-ness